Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Getting better

Yes I am getting better. The hurt is not as bad as it was yesterday and well I think I will pull through...lol.. Everything still hurts just not quite as bad as it did.. and of course I have the wonderful world of Vicoden ..lol

I will say this.. it is so easy to revert back to your old comfort food eating habits when you are sick and lying around doing nothing. All I wanted was my good old comfort foods.. I know that this weeks weigh in is really gonna be a bad one as I did so much drinking this weekend as well as the fact that I ate some pretty bad foods ( pizza, rally burger) while I was laying on the couch nursing my sore body. So the combinations of crap food with doing nothing I am sure has packed on a couple of pounds. But never fear it will not stay on long!!! I will be back on track and losing weight again before you know it.

Now an update on the man game.. Wouldn't you know it.. The one that I really did not care about one way or the other if I saw again.. (you know the boring one who did not talk..) is the one who has been most persistent in calling me. I will say this much he does talk way more on the phone then he did in person.. and of course me being the person that I am came right out and asked him what the deal was on Saturday night.. Are you really shy or did you just not have anything to say.. he said he was very nervous and well that sometimes he just does not talk that much.. A man of few words I guess.... hmmm most women would probably like that but me I need to be able to get into a good fight once in awhile and I think with this guy I would always be the one making decisions and such and well my moto has been and probably always will be... "I need a man who is manlier then me.." lol Sooo I am thinking that today's phone call will be the last phone call..

Boy I am telling you my self esteem has just quadrupled in the past few weeks.. Imagine what it will be like when I lose 30 more lbs... Lord look out.. Michele is coming to take the world by storm.. I guess I just feel like I have missed out on so much stuff and am ready to have some fun and allot of it. I am comparing myself now to what I was this time last year and boy what a difference. I mean at this time last year I was sitting on the couch contemplating which food to eat and when and what TV show to watch and which one to record for later...Now I am always trying to line up what to do next.. I mean for instance her I am writing this blog while I am also talking to someone about meeting tomorrow night for karaoke at a local place.. I guess Thursday is becoming the new Friday..lol

Well anyhoo I guess this is enough babble for now. Talk to you all Friday for this weeks dreaded weigh day.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I Hurt !!!

Yes you read correctly I hurt!!...I had such a great weekend. My cousin showed up on Thursday night and we had a great time. Sang some karaoke, did a little dancing and quite allot of drinking. I even managed to get a date for Saturday night ( my cousin wanted to know what it was like to be a 3rd wheel) and well quite frankly I was glad he was there. The guy I was out with, while I will say he was pretty cute and had a super nice ass was boring as all hell. I could not get him to talk and even just asking him straight out questions was like pulling teeth. I figured he was acting that way maybe because he was wanting to get rid of me.. He did not even buy me a drink.. Can you believe it.. So I pretty much figured he was just hanging for an hour or so till he could safely escape, which would have been fine with me... but NOOOO he actually stayed the whole time and did not leave till I left. But by the end of the night he did start to talk more (just a little) and asked me to dance once. When I decided I was ready to leave he did walk me out, gave me a hug and then left. I was for sure figuring I would not hear from him again but guess what? he actually emailed me twice the next day. One saying hello and the other asking if he was just to boring for me... Gee ya think?? But the more I think about it, he could just be incredibly shy and me being the overbearing, fun loving person I am, could easily intimidate a shy person. So the verdict for me is still out on whether I go out with him again. I may give him one more try.

Now to talk about the I hurt.. yes the weekend was great but then all hell broke lose. Went riding on Sunday afternoon. The weather was kinda crappy and I should really have known better but I really wanted to ride. I took tbone out and of course he acted up, to the point where he went completely ballistic on me. I stayed on for as long as I could trying to get control but he finally got the better of me.. (if it was a rodeo I would have made my 8 secs with a great score) and up and OFF I went like a rag doll. I landed on my left back side, I knocked the wind right out of me so I was on the ground and NOT able to get up. Brent thought I was definitely hurt bad. of course that was after he got off the ground from his fall too. When I was able to get up I was having issues walking as my left hip, back and side were not working well. I was having trouble breathing still and it hurt something fierce in the center of my chest between the ribs.. I was a MESS and trying so very hard not to cry.. I hurt that bad. I made it home and then of course was NOT wanting to go to the hospital. After a while however I decided it would be for my best interest to go as I was not entirely sure I had not broken something as well as the pain between my ribs and breathing was getting worse. I was starting to get afraid that I screwed up something in my surgery.. so I figured it was best to go.. And of course there I stayed all evening and until the wee hours in the morning. Thankfully nothing is broken and I am basically just very bruised and battered.. The Doctor said I was gonna feel worse before I got better and she is right. Today is the worst right now. I friggin can't walk upright, turn my neck much, my shoulders and side ,along with my ribs and what I believe is my bruised kidney and sternum are hurting quite a bit..I have been taking my vicoden and muscle relaxers but even after taking those the pain does not go away it just dims it . I can't even roll over in my bed as My side hurts too much and so I am pretty much sleeping on my back propped up with pillows which I hate. My cousin Randy came over yesterday and did my chores for me so I was glad he did.

So that in a nutshell is how my weekend went. I hope everyone else had a great one, of course minus any accidents.

Talk to you all soon

Friday, October 24, 2008

weigh day.. Week???

Well I am still losing

This weeks weigh loss -2lbs
total weight loss since 4/29/08 -110lbs

AND I am now wearing a size 16 jeans !!!! comfortably

Pretty cool!! It is so amazing to me everytime I think about it just how far I have come and just how much I am changing. I am feeling better and of course looking better. I am really working hard at my self-confidence level and I think I am suceeding.. I went out to the bar last night with my cousin and had a good time.. I was comfortable enough to talk to more people and even managed to catch the eye of a couple of guys...lol... I don't feel like people are looking at me in disgust anymore and according to my cousin I get checked out quite frequently..lol..

Anyways, last night I also learned a HUGE lesson.. Now we all know that drinking is not the best thing you can do when you have this surgery and for the most part I am very careful about what I drink and how much.. But last night while getting my courage up to do some kareoke in a bar full of people I had a shot of Tequilla. That was the WORST mistake I could have ever made!! The minute that shot hit my stomach I doubled over in pain !! and it lasted for quite a few minutes. It was terrible and you can bet that I will NEVER do that again.. To me it felt just like you were pouring straight alcohol on an open cut.. Lesson learned on this one..

This weekend will also be a busy one. I am looking forward to spending time with my cousin and have allot of activities planned including some horse back riding.. Which you all know I just love to do. I hope you all have a great weekend and a safe one.. I am looking forward to telling you all about my weekend adventures.

Think Thin... MeChelle

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Practice Makes perfect --

Yup I went out with another guy last night.. we met at a local bar and had a pretty good time.. but, of course, who knows what will happen but my new way of thinking is that why not just go out and meet as many as I can. Get a few free drinks and dinners and see what happens.. So what I am basically saying is that I am now being able to look at this whole dating thing in a strictly casual manner.. totally different then a a couple of weeks ago. It will be interesting to see how things progress as the months or even years may go by.. I might just be looking back at these post and laughing while I am comfortable in some new relationship with a man who will seem perfect to me.. (Oh healthier Chelle... I have not ruled out the horse auction thing.. I actually found a new horse auction that I will be attending soon) My internet dating membership will be running out soon and I will NOT be renewing them as I don't really have the extra money to spend and the other reason is that I want to do a little experiment and see how men react to me as I lose more weight.. For instance I started this progress at one weight and did it for a month. I would like to lose 20 more lbs then sign up again and try it for a month. and then so on.. It is gonna be my own little experiment as to how men in general act. Who knows maybe my little experiment will end up on the Oprah show..lol

I am looking forward to this upcoming weekend. My cousin form TN is flying in and we always have a great time when we get together. So it should be a very active weekend which is always a good thing as then I don't have to worry about how much food I am putting in my mouth.

And speaking of food.. I am doing pretty well I think, I have not weighed myself at all so I am not really sure if I am losing any weight this week.. I of course, hope that I am but I am not really feeling it this week at all. But I guess we will see on Friday. I would happy with another 2 lbs.. My 6 month check up is coming due so we will see just how well I am doing.. I know that they are gonna yell about my protein as I am still very lax on getting that in. My hair is still falling out but some days it is worse then others and even though it is falling out I am not really seeing a difference in my hair, I mean it still feels as thick and as full as it usually does and well I get a butt load of compliments on it from all my online single weirdos.

So I guess that is it for now. I will check in with you all again on Friday.. Everyone have a great couple of days..

Monday, October 20, 2008

Did everyone enjoy the weekend

I actually had a really decent weekend and a couple of first for me in a very long time.

I went on Friday to meet that guy for our little lunch date.. While he was nice enough, he is definitely not my type, Not to mention his picture was quite deceiving and probably taken 15 years ago.. Now don't get me wrong I am certainly not hung up on looks by any means but you still have to have some sort of attraction to the person you are with. With him there was no attraction so we are just chalking it up to practice makes perfect. I figure the more I do this the more self confidence I will get. Now because I had taken the time to make myself look nice and was feeling good I was in the mood to go out Friday night and see what kind a trouble I could find. I called a friend of mine and he and his wife met me at a local bar for a drink, they decided that they wanted to try another place so we left and went there However there was only 5 people in the bar and we had only one drink. My friends decided to call it a night but I was still ready to go out. SO I decided what the hell.. I will take Allan's advice (almost gastric bypass) and go back to the bar I was at ... by myself... sit down and see if the men would come. Well they did...kinda..... I was a magnet for all the pot bellied, older men.. 55 and up... I have no idea why that was.. But they all seemed to think that they had some kinda chance with me. It was actually super funny!!! and well this bar, while it is a place I go to occasionally is not really the best place to be meeting anyone anyways but what I did by going there by myself was really strictly to build my self confidence. I actually had a pretty good time, just listening to the music and watching people have fun.. I stayed till closing so I obviously was not all that bored. This is a first for me.. Or well I should not say a first but it might as well be as the last time I went to a bar by myself it was in my early 20's

Saturday I was up bright and early. I took care of my uncles place and then came home and went for about a 2 hour ride on my horse copper. It was a nice ride as the weather was perfect. When I got back home my friends Melanie and Kevin came to visit and spent the night.. We took the kids to the huckleberry railroad Halloween spooktacular. It was actually a pretty decent time.. Which is surprising as anyone who knows me knows that I am not a kids person.. But I was pleasantly surprised that all the kids were really well behaved. Also with the purchase of the ticket you got to go trick or treating at little stations that are set up around the park.. It was a big test for me as the candy that was giving out was the good stuff.. and I had a whole bag of it. But I ate NONE... and I was not even tempted to try it, nor did I even sample the donuts that they were giving out. As the months go by from this surgery it is really easy for me now to just not eat sugar. who would have thought that I would be able to give it up so easily with no issues. When people try to get me to eat it I just say NO!!!! I am so proud of myself for having such will power

On Sunday I met up with my friends Rich and Wayne and we went riding. It was about a 4 hour ride I had so much fun. It was a little more of a challenging ride as we went to an area that had all kinds of hills and ravines and made riding much more challenging not to mention we got lost a few times so we were making our own trails. 5 months ago I would have never attempted to do any of the stuff I did yesterday. I would have been too heavy and it would have been too hard on the horse. I had such a great time and it was really a boost to my self confidence again as a rider, I am really starting to feel like that cowgirl I have always wanted to be.

Soooo now here we are back to the ho hum drum of Monday morning.. I have made it my mission that today I get back to the gym and start exercising regularly.. Who knows maybe I will even meet someone at the gym. lol.. well it can't hurt to look....lol..

Happy Monday everyone!!

Friday, October 17, 2008

I am bored

Hey all. Another Friday is here and almost gone already. I tried to post many times this morning but my computer was not working right or maybe it was just this website. Anyways the results are in for today

After last weeks big loss I still managed to lose another 2 lbs

this weeks loss -2lbs
Total weight loss to date -108lbs

Not to bad.. I am happy with it.

Well even though I swore off men the other day. I did end up going on a lunch date today with a guy. I will say that he seems nice enough but he definitely looks way older then the picture that he had online.. I know for sure that he wants to see me again, of course, I have heard that before but I don't know, I guess it can't hurt and practice makes perfect right .. But I guess it is also something I do not have to decide right this very instant either.

Now onto my bored thing.. I have to admit I am really getting lonely and bored. I am very antsy lately and am needing some excitement of some kind. I can't quite put my finger on it! and of course money is so tight, so that causes major issues as most all of my friends want to go out usually for dinner and drinks and well I just afford to be doing that all time specially when the eating thing is no longer much of a part of my life. My body has changed so much now that I guess I am feeling the need for everything else to change and of course being the way that I am I want everything to change right now !!! .. But I know in my head that it just does not happen that way but at the same time my head just refuses to accept that. So I guess I will keep searching for whatever it is I am looking for and hopefully some day I will find it.

Everyone have a great weekend. Think Thin.. MEchele

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I have been blown off

Oh well what is a girl to do.. I guess as My fellow blogger Allan says I am gonna quit worrying about men. I have come to realize that I am just not ready for this dating things yet and well I think I am just gonna let it slide and see how I feel again in another month or two. As everyone says there are plenty of fish in the sea and well maybe when I get a tad bit skinnier and of course more confident in myself I will go fishing again. I will catch a butt load of guppies until my big ole shark comes along...lol.

I think as I stated before I am now gonna just really start concentrating on the Physical fitness part of my new life and body.. I will start to go to the gym more and make it my routine. I have no excuses to not get "my train on" as my other fellow blogger and cousin Healthier Chelle says. I have 13 lbs to try and lose by the end of the month and I will do my best.. That will be my 6 month mark and I would love to be down 120lbs.. That would be so cool and boy would I really feel proud of myself. I won't beat myself up over it if I don't make it but I am gonna try.

I am feeling pretty good, Got a little sick last night as I ate a bit of greasy food but all is well.

I spoke to another person yesterday who had the same surgery as I, she is my age as well and was about my weight & Height when she started. She had her surgery 11 months ago and is down a whopping 172lbs.. Can you believe it? Boy I can't wait for that day to happen. 172 pound in less then a year. Crazy!!! that is like a whole other adult person and she feels great!
I am glad to know there are so many other people out there who have had this surgery and have very little or no complications from it.

Well anyways I will talk to you all on Friday for weigh day.. I am not really think I will have too big of numbers but if I did not gain anything I will be incredibly happy!!! ( I am shooting for -4lbs)

Talk to you all later..

Monday, October 13, 2008

My weekend

Sorry guys this will be kinda a short post, pretty busy today but I had a pretty darn good weekend. I did have a Friday night date with the guy, Joe and things went really, really well.. At least I thought anyhow.. But I spoke with him yesterday for all of 10 minutes and he seemed very nonchalant and quick to get off the phone, not to mention I called him and not the other way around. But I guess if he did not want to talk to me he could have just not answered the phone. As he knew it was me when he answered. This is the part about dating I really hate, I have no idea how to keep things casual in my mind.. I mean don't get me wrong it is not like I am declaring any undying love or anything like that but it is hard for me to just try to keep things light in my mind. I have such insecurity issues that it is not even funny and I have no idea what to do to correct these issues with myself. I mean all I think about is what I may have did wrong, said wrong, acted wrong or even looked wrong. I am so insecure with myself that it is not even funny. I know that is surprising and really in a group settings I have no problems but one on one is a totally different issue. Not to mention I still feel very fat as well as now I have nasty hanging skin to deal with, Boy I sound like I will never be happy with myself and who knows maybe that will be the case but I am really trying hard to not be like that .

Now on to my class reunion. I had a pretty good time. I mean as best as I could have anyways. I mingled as much as I could to try and figure out everyone. I was really pleasantly surprised that there were allot of people who knew me and well quite frankly I had no idea who they were, I keep having to look in the old yearbook to refresh my memory.. lol.. I guess I was more popular then I thought I was. Everyone commented to me on my hair and how pretty it was, made me feel good. I forgot that all my high school years I had short hair so everyone was really surprised.

Sunday however I was wiped out. Having slept very little Friday and Saturday night and dealing with insomnia all week long it caught up with me. I ended up taking a 4 hour nap in the afternoon but forced myself to go out and mow most of my lawn and trim Sunday after I woke up. My body felt like I had been hit by a truck.. I have no idea why that was as I did not do anything all that physical that would have made me feel that way. I mean I barely even danced on Saturday night. However I did drink quite a bit so maybe that had its effect on me. I know, I know I should not drink but it is not something I do very often at all so I don't feel too bad about it.

Otherwise the diet is going well .. I have controlled my eating and my stomach is back to normal with only allowing small amounts of food. I have increased my protein and have been really darn good about taking my vitamins, now I just need to get focused on my exercise. Hopefully after Tuesday when my cousin comes back and picks up her dogs that I have been watching I can start concentrating more on that.

Talk to you all soon .

PS I guess this wasn't such a short post after all.

Friday, October 10, 2008

The BIG Reveal !!!

Yup you guessed it!!! I FINALLY hit the over 100lb weight loss.. and I did it with a HUGE BANG!!! Not only did I do very well this week I think that this is my largest weight loss week so far since my journey started Soooooo you know what that means.. As promised, I must reveal my actually start weight and current weight for all the world to know. .....VERY SCARY for me to do but here goes!!!!! drum roll please .......................

This weeks weight LOSS ... -9 lbs .... YIPPIE!!!!
Total weight loss since April 29th, 2008 ..... -106 lbs GONE !!!!

Here goes the scary part... Deep breath!!!!

Pre-surgery start weight a whopping 339lbs (god I just hate writing this)

Current Weight -- 233 lbs .. This is the lowest weight I have been since probably about 1994 or more. ..

Boy Can you believe it.. I was fat..... Hence, of course, the reason I had surgery. I am really very excited.. .Technically I am really about 34 lbs away from my goal weight.. which was just to be 199.. anything under 200lbs basically. I am sure that I will actually shoot for more once I reach that but right now that is my next big goal..

On to other news.. My class reunion is tomorrow 20 years Holy SHIT .. I remember like it was yesterday one of the happiest days of my life.. High school Graduation and here it is now 20 years later.. I actually was quite on the fence about going to it but I am.. Who knows if anyone will be there that I actually care about seeing and boy do I sure hope that some of those old bitchy, snobby girls and those stuck up jocks have all gotten fat and Bald.. lol.. It should be very interesting, at least I am going with one of my best friends Sue and we will have a nice time together regardless.. We don't get to spend to much time together anymore so it is always nice when we get to see each other.

And now to even more news.. My date from weds night .. Joe.. Did actually call me yesterday.. I get some mixed signals from him but I guess if he was not interested he would not have called nor would he of asked me to do something else.. Which so happens to be for tonight.. I am actually gonna make dinner and then he was gonna bring a movie over.. But of course he said he would call me today once he got up and stuff ( he works 3rd shift) to finalize a time and such but being the skeptical person I am I will believe that he is coming only when he actually calls. I have to say I do hope that he does. We seem to have bunch in common so that is pretty cool. I also however am still continuing to talk to 2 other people.. I have not met them yet and one I don't think I am gonna meet but the other one is still kinda promising. So we will see.

Well I guess that is all for now.. Everyone have a great weekend..

Mechele

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Guess What!!!

You won;t be believe it. After all my bitching the other day, I actually went out on a date tonight with someone whom I spoke with online. He actually seems like a pretty decent guy whom I have allot in common with. He hunts, fishes, loves the outdoors and for a bonus he was pretty darn cute. He seemed very sincere when he said he would like to see me again and that he would call but of course men say allot of things that they don't do.. Gee I don't have any trust issues do I ... and I also have been talking to another guy who seems like a good prospect also.. Boy what a ego boost it is for me right now. On my date tonight we met at a local bar for dinner & Drinks and then after that he suggested we go for coffee someplace quieter so we could talk without shouting.. So we ended up at a big boy for the rest of the evening.. He works 3rd shift so it was not a late night as he had to be at work by 11pm. I am guessing if he was not interested he would have bolted right after dinner with some lame excuse.. So I guess we will see what tomorrow brings , if he doesn't call then it will be his loss.. Oh and by the way I think I looked pretty darn hot!!!

Now on to my diet.. I have been doing pretty good this week, I have been eating sensible and I have been getting in allot more protein then I have been in the past couple of weeks so hopefully my hair loss will slow down. I am feeling very confident that the weight loss will come this week and I will hit my 100 lbs mark, maybe if I am lucky a little bit more. I sure hope so. It seems like I have been in limbo for quite awhile now and I am ready to move on. So everyone keep your fingers crossed!!

I am once again doing my uncle chore for him as he took off on another long weekend up-north however, I am lucky this time as I only have to do the morning chores. His son Robert is gonna do the evening ones but I guess the good thing about that is that It forces me to get up and moving in the morning..

Well I hope everyone is doing well and thinking THIN thoughts.. Talk to you soon

Monday, October 6, 2008

This WILL be the week !!

I don't care if I have to take 10 laxatives and shit out my excess 3 lbs I am gonna get to that 100 lb mark!!!..lol .. I am really gonna focus this week and get the pounds off. I have thrown away all the grazing food in my house so that will get rid of some of the temptations and I am really gonna focus hard on getting my protein in because as per usual I am lacking on that and my hair is really starting to fall out.

I had a pretty productive weekend. I worked outside quite a bit and got allot of work done out there. I put all my pool stuff away as well as got the outside lawn furniture and stuff moved. I even started on cleaning out my barn but I have LOTS more work to do on that before I can even consider that clean...lol.. I also did allot of weed whacking and hopefully that will be the last time this year I have to do it and I also took care of all my uncles animals while he is once again gone for a long weekend. Now, of course, I did not work all weekend I did take some time and had some fun. Me & my horse copper went for a long ride on Saturday and on Sunday I went on a 10 mile charity horse ride.. That was great fun, I took my horse T-bone on that ride and he was a pretty good boy with only a few incidents.. ( For him that is good, he can be mighty stubborn when he wants to be) but I am so proud of myself because as I continue to lose weight my riding skills continue to improve. Before T-bone had me pretty intimidated as he can be a handful to control and being fat does not help with balance, specially if he is trying to throw you off. Now I can handle him pretty well and that he is now learning that he can try all he wants but I am not going anywhere and he will do what I say. He is basically figuring it out slowly but surely.. I think after yesterdays ride he now understands and he is gonna finally give up. He tried to be a butt head just a couple of times and he was quickly corrected as well as he tried a new thing and that was rearing up on his hind legs.. This is something he never did before and I pretty much considered it a last stitch effort on his part.. I think it scared him way more then it bothered me.
But anyways the whole moral of this story is that the weight loss has helped me dramatically in this area and for that I am so thankful. It was always a life long dream of mine to own horses and ride. Well I have owned the horses long enough, now I am able to ride the way I always wanted to, that in itself is worth it..

Now to update you all on the Internet dating thing. It seems that there are way too many weirdos in this world and it seems that they are all attracted to me. I am very puzzled as too why it seems that I can't attract anyone worth any potential.. I mean I know it has only been 1 week and I am certainly not gonna find my knight in shining armor in that time but I have not even caught the attention of anyone who might excite me, everyone that has emailed or IM'd me has had alternative motives, is just mentallyway out there or they seem like they are interesting and Interested in meeting me but then you never hear from them again. Boy I hate it when a guy says that they will call and doesn't.. For all you guys reading out there..Why do you do that? specially on the Internet it is not like you can see my face or anything.. This is why I hate this stuff, I am thinking that I may just not be ready to start the dating thing yet and I think I may just wait until I can deal with it without questioning myself all the time and wondering what the heck is wrong with me.. This issues stems from years of being told bad things about myself or questioning my self worth... I am not sure what it will take to get over it. or if I will ever get over it. Probably need a shrinks help for that but well that is something I really am not gonna do so for the time being I am just gonna let it slide and just be happy with how things are going and concentrate on my weight loss. I am sure I will meet someone someday.

Well I guess that is it for now.. or at least it is enough for me right now.

Happy Monday everyone.. MEchele

Friday, October 3, 2008

Well Not this week either

I guess my body is just taking and hiatus right now on the weight loss. I was hoping for the big 100 but I am not surprised that it did not happen . I was not really good about my diet the past week and well the scale showed it.

Weight GAIN this week +2 lbs
Total weight loss since surgery -97lbs

It is a bummer but well I have no one to blame really.. I need to get focused and also get exercising. I know that there is no way that I will not lose more weight so I am not worrying about it.. Maybe I am subconsciously trying to sabotage myself into not getting to that 100lb mark so I don't have to reveal my actual weight.. I have no idea why I can't get over that little hurtle, I guess it is pure embarrassment on my part that I had let myself get that big.

On another note this Internet dating thing is crazy!!! I have had quite a few responses and have IM with quite a few people. At one time the other night I had like 5 guys IMing at one time and I just started to laugh as I kept getting confused as to who was who and what... I finally just gave up, not to mention that most of them seemed like the were way too weird for my taste... and the ones who were basically out for a quick lay got the boot right away or the ones who claimed I was the "one" by looking at my picture and profile got the boot too. According to what I have been told you have to really weed out the weird ones to get to the one normal ones. I have chatted with one guy who seems like he could be somewhat normal but who knows.

This weekend will hopefully be a good one, I have plenty to keep me busy around here. It is time to get all my outside stuff done and summer stuff put away before the snow flies. It was pretty cold last night so I am gonna have to get out the electric blanket as I refuse to put the furnace on just yet. I will also be doing a 10 mile charity ride on Sunday with my horse T-bone.. He needs the exercise as well I do. and my uncle is once again gone off for a long weekend so I will be doing the chores for him again till Tuesday.

Well I guess that is all for now. Here's to a healthier week coming up and lots of weight loss!!

Think thin..