I know I have posted about this before but it is something that is such a big part of my personality, for lack of better terminology. Yesterday was a VERY stressful day. It started off fun & exciting but ended up rather dismal to include the fact that my horse T-bone ended up with several stitches in his head and me with a vet bill I really did not need to deal with but just like with kids you always have those unexpected bills. That, of course, was not all that happened yesterday and I won't bore you with all the details but lets just say that if this was BS time (before surgery) I would have ate my weight in food and then some.
But anyways, as with allot of things that have changed with my surgery stress eating is one of them, whether it is the surgery that has helped me deal with it or the fact that I am re-training my brain is yet to be determined because I personally think that it is a combination of both. Yesterday I found myself going to the refrigerator and pantry a million and one times, just opening the door and looking, looking for something good to eat. Did I eat?? not always as thankfully I really have nothing in my house to eat as I don't buy many groceries anymore, but I did find myself grazing quite a bit specially towards nightfall when the pressures of the days events had time to settle in and started making me mad and anxious. But here is the difference, when I did go to the frig and grab something it was healthy foods and every time I started to eat it I felt guilty and would stop and throw it away or my trusty dog Porter got an unexpected treat. So here I am this morning thinking about everything that I did eat yesterday and really I did not do so bad. Here is the list:
1- protein bar for breakfast 190 calories 20 grams of protein
20oz glass of skim milk & lactaid mixed with a splash of Sugar Free choco Syrup
@3oz or so of left over Japanese steak house food (incidentally if you remember my other post I got 4 more meals out of those leftovers)
1 pc of spinach pie (approx 1" x 2" diameter)
1 piece of string cheese
handful of pretzels dipped in cheese and those little goldfish crackers
water or SF koolaide
and that is all. Realistically that probably only adds up to about 1000 calories if that and realistically thinking I guess I am more aware mentally of my stress eating problem then I thought I was as I am able to actually keep myself in check for the most part (pretzels and Goldfish are not the best choices but hey there are a whole lot worse) Again that asks the question of whether or not the surgery is the reason or whether I am mentally finding ways to deal with it. What do you think?? I am now, as I am writing this, really leaning toward the surgery helping me because if I were to be honest with myself, without me having this surgery, yesterday would have been a food fatality day for me. This surgery prevented me from overeating anything that I put in my mouth and having the surgery has also FORCED me to take a good long look at all my past bad habits and addictions, it FORCED me to think about everything I was putting in my mouth yesterday and most importantly WHY I was putting it in my mouth yesterday, was it because I was hungry, was it because I needed my protein or was it because I was just stressed?
I am not exactly sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing, as I stated in the past I am just one of those people who need drastic measures to get my ass in gear and to make changes that need to be made.
What is your opinion?? I would love to hear it.
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Not the surgery. You have made a concious effort, above and beyond the surgery, to get healthier. I applaud your efforts. With the surgery, you can still eat. You will pay for it later, but you can eat. You chose not to, and that is fantastic !!!
As a trained chef, here are some quick short cuts. Use Olive Oil Spray always instead of butter and other stuff for grease. Spray on works great, tasted great, and it is lo-cal if you need it. Go to the Supermarket and get fresh Herbs. Buy Cilantro, everything will taste Mexican. Get Rosemary and everything will taste woodsy. Cook with lots of herbs and spices and the taste will excite you. Try lots, you cant go wrong and there is no set spice. Hot and spicy food will taste better to you now that you are chewing very slowly. Fresh tomatoes off the vine, Cucumbers and tomatoes marinated in Balsamic Vinegar with salt and pepper and a little olive oil. See if you are allowed to eat Hummus and get some. Don't look at what is in it, make sure you are allowed to eat it. Something called BabaGanoouj, which is roasted eggplant salad, tastes great. Mediterannean food works well on my plan and should work on yours.
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