Gee, do you catch a little sarcasm in that? Well I was actually really looking forward to today's weigh in. All week long I have actually felt like I was losing weight. You know when you wake up in the morning and your body just feels like it has lost some. Well all week I have felt like that, I really was anticipating some loss. Well guess what? I was wrong!!!
Last weeks total weight loss was 90lbs
This weeks weigh in.. Weight GAIN of +1 lb
Total weight loss - 89 lbs..
How in the world can that be??? I know I am being very hard on myself right now and I should really be happy. In my head I know that there is no way in this world that I am not gonna continue to lose weight but I am just very disappointed right now. My life, in a word right now, totally sucks at the moment with work and other stress, so these weekly weight losses have been the highlight of my dismal weeks.. and since this week is obviously not a good one you can imagine how let down I feel.
Oh I know, I am just having a total pity party right now, but I guess I am entitle to feel the way I feel. I guess I just have to get past it and focus on next week.. But I think it is safe to say that I will not hit my 100 pound mark by the 10th of this month. I will be doing a weigh in the 10th just to see how close I come.
My body is also really sore today. I took a fall off my horse on Weds, and yesterday when I woke up I was surprised that I did not feel any soreness but as the day went on my muscles started to feel it and well this morning I am feeling it more. I also wonder if the fact that I am really stressed right now and that I am a heart attack waiting to happen is possibly causing the weight gain. I know stress really plays havoc on your body and can cause you many issues. Also if you remember from my older post I mentioned that doctor thought my vomiting was caused by stress and the tension that it was putting on my esophagus and she was absolutely right because I have been dealing with that vomiting reflex allot the last couple of days.
I know this is a downer post today, and I feel bad about it. I have been really trying hard to NOT be so pessimistic and down the last couple months and I think I have done a pretty good job. But today and this week I have to make an exception. But I guess things will get better, they always do and I will get through it and boy I hope I can laugh about it in a few years.
I am gonna try to switch up my diet a bit the next few days.. Sometime I think your body does tend to get used to things and maybe if I change things a bit I will get the weight loss flowing again. I think maybe I will really try and focus on making sure I get my protein shakes in.. Kinda like my pre-surgery diet and see what happens besides that I really need to focus on getting more protein anyways so this will help with that and maybe slow down the hair loss as yes it is still coming out. Thankfully I have allot of hair and can afford to lose some.
Well I guess that is it for today, I have probably depressed you all enough as it is.. This weekend will be a busy one as I have tons of stuff to do before I go on my little trip Weds and I have to again do my uncles chores at his horse farm for the weekend so I will be pretty darn active which is good. It will be good to keep my mind active on other things.
Everyone have a great weekend and I will talk to you later
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2 comments:
Don't get discouraged cuz!
You are doing so well...
1 lb - big deal!
You have lost 89!
Remember, muscle weighs more than fat. It could have been that you HAVE been losing fat this week but with all the work you've been doing, gained more muscle than usual. Don't just look at the numbers- take a look at how you feel, how the clothes feel, etc. You said that you felt good this week and felt like you lost weight- THAT'S what you should focus on. One pound.... psh... you just lost 89 pounds and kept them off! That's a huge accomplishment. Don't let one pound get you down. I honestly don't think it's a fat pound but a muscle pound. You're doing terrific!
Now chin up and have a great weekend! You're SO close to your goal! I'm excited for the results on Wednesday, the 10th!
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