Sorry it has been so long since my last post. I am not sure why that is or whether it is a good thing or a bad thing but whatever the reason I am back posting today. Allot has been going with me some good, nothing too bad but mostly my life is kinda in limbo right now. My weight loss has pretty much completely stalled for the moment or for the past 1-1/2 months and for the most part that is pretty much my fault. I have not been eating the healthiest things out there and I have certainly not done any exercise at all. I need to really start to focus on what is going on with that as I am now starting to wonder if I will ever reach my goal. I am already 9-1/2 months out of surgery and they say that the most weight loss comes off in the first year. I am down 124lbs so far but really need or want to lose another 30lbs if not a little more, so close but yet so far.. It kinda gets a bit depressing when I think about the fact that I have lost so much weight already but yet in others eyes and well my own I am still considered fat. I need to really focus my efforts and let go of all the other shit that rambles thru my brain. So with that being said tomorrow is a new day and we will again make that resolution to do and eat all the right things. But with that being said how much of my issues resolve around my weight? It is easy for me to think that if I could just be thin life would be perfect but it is not all wrapped up in that and that is another thing I need to figure out. Just what is gonna make me happy or am I destined to be the same doom and gloom person I feel like right now.
Well lets talk about the personal life for a bit. I did get a new job it could be just a temporary job for a year but heck we all know allot can happen in a year. It is a new position that I am trying to create so it is a bunch of hard work and kinda overwhelming at times but it is in the construction industry and well I have always been better at that kinda stuff then anything else. ****************************************************************************************
Well here it is Tuesday night now and I started writing this Sunday..lol.. See what I mean I just don't focus on stuff like I used to.. Sunday I was so PMSing and that always messes with my mind... I hate being a women at that time of the month.. But anyways I am feeling better today not so gloomy not so depressing. I really am doing good, things are looking up and I am really looking forward to the summer. I still have yet to find anyone remotely close to being Mr. Right for me but I have been giving it my best shot...have met some real winners...lol.. Here is some highlights
Rich & Hank - While both of these guys are very nice and would pursue something with either one they are either just looking for friendship or super slow in the romance dept But either way they need to shit or get off the pot .
Rich#2 - He is looking for friends with benefits...
Rich # 3 - He just plain ole stood me up and so that makes him total loser and a waste of flesh
Chris - He was a good potential but ruined it the next day after our first date by being way too pushy.. I think his medication wore off or something.. lol
Dan - Never met him but our first conversation was a real winner.. He started off by telling me he was a sniper that was contracted by the state of Michigan to take out whatever targets that needed to be taken out in whatever city that could not afford a swat team...then proceeded to tell me that he was an assassin in the US army and that he had all these top secret missions ( but yet he did all this and got all this security clearance and he only served 4 years) then proceeded to tell me that he also owned 3 businesses and was related to just about every important person around and last but not least he knew, because the government told him, that by the year 2012 the USA would be in one big civil war with each other... and best of all this man lived like 2 miles away from me.. lol.. Wow such an important person living in my little town of Otisville, MI. It makes me feel so much better knowing that someone so important lives so close... NOT!!! Can you say Physco.. He is the one that you read about who goes off the deep end.
Jason - Mr. 3rd date rule -- Why do I call him that ?? Well he came right out and told me when he asked me out for a 3rd date that if I did not put out we were through..lol.. Wrong thing to say to me...lol. I mean come on, have some tack even if that is what you think don't say it out loud. People like me who are very stubborn would not put out even if I wanted to after a comment like that
Then the best loser for last --- that would be Robert ... he was about 15 years older looking then his picture, about 75 lbs heavier also. He was 20 minutes late for our date and that was after I spoke with him on the phone and he told me he lived 5 minutes away and was leaving right then. He then proceeded to tell me and as he said he wanted to be honest (even though I had been talking to him for like a month before I met him) That he had trouble in the past and had just got his driver license back after 10 years of not having it and had to blow every time he started the car. AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST..... I only thought this happened on TV.... He "Forgot" his wallet...lol... Can you believe it.. I should have said Oh well so sorry but I am too nice a person to do that.. And after all that he really thought he was gonna have a shot at seeing me again..lol Well I had to tell him that 1st impressions mean a bunch and well his first impression was pretty bad..
So that is it right now on the man thing Unless you count Allen.. He is someone I have been talking to and emailing for a couple of weeks. Have not met him yet but seems nice, I just really have no expectations anymore as one never knows just what you will find when you meet for the 1st time.. and that is even if you end up meeting.. Everyone seems to talk allot of shit and unfortunately that is all it ends up being..shit..
So as I said before I am just gonna take it all in stride and see what happens.. hey if anything it has definitely given me a few laughs from time to time..
as far as anything else goes I just have been busy.. with work and life!! I have done quite a bit of snowmobiling the past month (although the snow is gone now..boo hoo) and also my uncle was sick for quite awhile and I was looking after all his horses and stuff not to mention one of my horse got injured and required constant attention for what was about 3 weeks, he almost lost his eyesight in one eye but all is very well with him now so that is a good thing.. I have done a bit of drinking also over the last 6 weeks, some a bit crazy and some just social but nothing that I think is effecting me badly. I still have not had any sugar and remain completely committed to that, I have been taking my vitamins regularly and must have increased my protein intake enough as my hair has stopped falling out.
Well I guess that is it for now, I am sure I left out a ton of crap but well I am lucky I even remember as much as I have.
Talk to you all soon and think thin.. Mechele
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
I know I am sorry
I have been terrible about posting and I am sorry. I have no idea why that is but I really need to get my butt in gear and get back in the swing of things. I seem to be falling off the wagon on quite a few things lately, foods & drinking being the biggest. My weight seems to be at a stand still right now but I am sure that is because of the poor food choices I have been making I have been fluctuating the same 3 lbs for what seems like over a month. I guess the stand still is to be expected as I have lost so much already that it is bound to start to taper off and slow down. I know from talking to people that this happens quite often and to not worry about it as the weight will start coming off again of course I also have to get back to making the right food choices.
Right now as of today's weigh in I am still at an even 120lbs gone. Exactly 20 more lbs till I reach my goal and will be happy, but another 50lbs and I will be ecstatic.. It seems like such a small amount compared to what I have already lost but it definitely seems the hardest of all.
So how was every ones New Years. Mine was great, TN was a fun time as usual, got very drunk which is probably a bad thing..lol.. But it happens so quickly now that it just kinda creeps up on you and the next thing you know I am slurring my words and giggling like an idiot..lol. But it was fun never the less and am looking forward to doing it again. On my flight back to Michigan it was overbooked and I volunteered to get bumped so I was given a $300.00 voucher to fly again sometime so I already have my next plane ticket bought and I can't wait to use it again. Also if you remember from my last post I mentioned that this was the first flight in a long time that I would not be stressing over fitting in the plane seat and you know what... I fit with plenty of room!!!It was kinda funny because I kept looking at the seats thinking that they were bigger then normal...lol.. I also was able to walk down the Isle without having to be turn sideways and not bumping everyone in the isle seats as I went along.
SO what about every ones New Years resolutions.. I have to say that I did not make any because we all know that they only last for a few weeks anyways so why bother. I figure I am just gonna continue to focus on me and keep doing the best I can everyday and go from there. I have had tons of changes this past year and I think I am on enough overload that I do not need to add anything else to it.
Now on to the dating scene. Been talking to a bunch of guys, met a new one last night but I don't know if I will see him again or not. He did not seem to interested in me but after he left the bar I met another guy ..lol.. maybe he will call. I am not stressing about the men thing any longer what happens will happen and I am going with the flow.. Last night when I went out I got tons of compliments and well quite frankly I thought I looked pretty darn hot.. and any man should have loved to have me by there side so as far as I am concerned right now it is there loss..
Well I guess that is it for now. I will try and keep up with my postings from now on. I really have no excuse.
Take care... Mechele
Right now as of today's weigh in I am still at an even 120lbs gone. Exactly 20 more lbs till I reach my goal and will be happy, but another 50lbs and I will be ecstatic.. It seems like such a small amount compared to what I have already lost but it definitely seems the hardest of all.
So how was every ones New Years. Mine was great, TN was a fun time as usual, got very drunk which is probably a bad thing..lol.. But it happens so quickly now that it just kinda creeps up on you and the next thing you know I am slurring my words and giggling like an idiot..lol. But it was fun never the less and am looking forward to doing it again. On my flight back to Michigan it was overbooked and I volunteered to get bumped so I was given a $300.00 voucher to fly again sometime so I already have my next plane ticket bought and I can't wait to use it again. Also if you remember from my last post I mentioned that this was the first flight in a long time that I would not be stressing over fitting in the plane seat and you know what... I fit with plenty of room!!!It was kinda funny because I kept looking at the seats thinking that they were bigger then normal...lol.. I also was able to walk down the Isle without having to be turn sideways and not bumping everyone in the isle seats as I went along.
SO what about every ones New Years resolutions.. I have to say that I did not make any because we all know that they only last for a few weeks anyways so why bother. I figure I am just gonna continue to focus on me and keep doing the best I can everyday and go from there. I have had tons of changes this past year and I think I am on enough overload that I do not need to add anything else to it.
Now on to the dating scene. Been talking to a bunch of guys, met a new one last night but I don't know if I will see him again or not. He did not seem to interested in me but after he left the bar I met another guy ..lol.. maybe he will call. I am not stressing about the men thing any longer what happens will happen and I am going with the flow.. Last night when I went out I got tons of compliments and well quite frankly I thought I looked pretty darn hot.. and any man should have loved to have me by there side so as far as I am concerned right now it is there loss..
Well I guess that is it for now. I will try and keep up with my postings from now on. I really have no excuse.
Take care... Mechele
Sunday, December 28, 2008
100th Post !!
Well I know I have not posted in awhile and yes I should have .. Kinda like you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all.. But this is my 100th post and I feel like I should maybe post something special.. So I am gonna do the top 10 good things that have changed in my life since the surgery.. In no specific order.
10) I can now wipe my ass with no problems !!! lol
9) I can now squat down and get up without having to grab things for help or have my knees scream at me in pain
8) My energy level and ability to do things has greatly improved. My feet no longer kill me after walking short distances
7) I have started dating again
6) I have started thinking of myself as a normal looking person and not embarrassed when I go to public places and that my socializing or general interaction with people has improved
5) I can ride my horses with ease and not worry about people looking at me funny and wondering whether or not the horse is smaller then me.
4) my body mass index has gone form 53.1 to 34
3) I have gone from a size 28 to a size 16
2) My overall health has improved, no more aches and pains, no more type 2 diabetes
and the #1
I JUST FEEL GREAT about my progress ( with the exception of the depression, which is getting better)
Bonus Good thing... I am a pretty cheap drunk nowadays....lol
So how was everyone's holiday. Mine was quite well actually. I really feel like I did well on the food thing. I did not overdue it by any means and went through the whole holiday season so far and did not even cheat once on the sugar thing.. I ate no cookies, no candy, no nothing with sugar.. That is very impressive if I do say so myself... and something that I am proud of.
I also went and did a little clothes shopping this weekend. I still have to go to the bigger sections in some stuff but it is getting better every time. I did however venture into a normal size clothing store. Which probably was a mistake specially when it was one of those trendy places. They of course did not have anything pant wise in my size but I did try on some shirts. They did not fit ( they only went to a size large I am an XL) but they were not too far off so I am getting very close and that makes me feel good. Maybe another 20 lbs and some more exercise and I should be good to go. And speaking of exercise. My last post I vowed I was going that day to join the local gym and I did do it and I did work out.. the only problem.. That is the only time I have gone since.. I am BAD!!!! I really need to get it in gear.. I was going to go today but the weather is terrible and the wind is very bad. I had a tree come down and of course it crashed right through my fence, so I have been out all afternoon with the chainsaw cutting it up and moving it as well as I had to repair the fence as my horses would have been all over the neighborhood if I did not get it done and I have no time this week to do it.
And why do I not have anytime this week. Well thanks to my cousins I will be flying out to Nashville on NYE (weds) and spending the weekend with them I am really looking forward to having some fun and who knows maybe I will meet some cute rednecks.. I am also really excited because for the 1st time in a long time I am gonna fly on an airplane and I am NOT stressed out about the seats and the seat belts fitting, nor will I have to ask for an extender... that is a big relief to me as well as not having the embarrassment.
Now on to the love life.. It definitely hit a slow spot but then again I was not really all to into either. But I did go out with a new guy last night. Things went well, we just met for drinks and it was an early night as he had to work but he has called me today already so I guess I did not scare him off too much. I am also supposed to go out with another guy tonight maybe but we will see if that pans out .. if not tonight though I am sure we will go out another night. But I am just gonna chill out on it and what happens, happens i am just not gonna stress over it..
Well I guess that is all for now.
Think thin Talk to you later
How was everyones Christas
10) I can now wipe my ass with no problems !!! lol
9) I can now squat down and get up without having to grab things for help or have my knees scream at me in pain
8) My energy level and ability to do things has greatly improved. My feet no longer kill me after walking short distances
7) I have started dating again
6) I have started thinking of myself as a normal looking person and not embarrassed when I go to public places and that my socializing or general interaction with people has improved
5) I can ride my horses with ease and not worry about people looking at me funny and wondering whether or not the horse is smaller then me.
4) my body mass index has gone form 53.1 to 34
3) I have gone from a size 28 to a size 16
2) My overall health has improved, no more aches and pains, no more type 2 diabetes
and the #1
I JUST FEEL GREAT about my progress ( with the exception of the depression, which is getting better)
Bonus Good thing... I am a pretty cheap drunk nowadays....lol
So how was everyone's holiday. Mine was quite well actually. I really feel like I did well on the food thing. I did not overdue it by any means and went through the whole holiday season so far and did not even cheat once on the sugar thing.. I ate no cookies, no candy, no nothing with sugar.. That is very impressive if I do say so myself... and something that I am proud of.
I also went and did a little clothes shopping this weekend. I still have to go to the bigger sections in some stuff but it is getting better every time. I did however venture into a normal size clothing store. Which probably was a mistake specially when it was one of those trendy places. They of course did not have anything pant wise in my size but I did try on some shirts. They did not fit ( they only went to a size large I am an XL) but they were not too far off so I am getting very close and that makes me feel good. Maybe another 20 lbs and some more exercise and I should be good to go. And speaking of exercise. My last post I vowed I was going that day to join the local gym and I did do it and I did work out.. the only problem.. That is the only time I have gone since.. I am BAD!!!! I really need to get it in gear.. I was going to go today but the weather is terrible and the wind is very bad. I had a tree come down and of course it crashed right through my fence, so I have been out all afternoon with the chainsaw cutting it up and moving it as well as I had to repair the fence as my horses would have been all over the neighborhood if I did not get it done and I have no time this week to do it.
And why do I not have anytime this week. Well thanks to my cousins I will be flying out to Nashville on NYE (weds) and spending the weekend with them I am really looking forward to having some fun and who knows maybe I will meet some cute rednecks.. I am also really excited because for the 1st time in a long time I am gonna fly on an airplane and I am NOT stressed out about the seats and the seat belts fitting, nor will I have to ask for an extender... that is a big relief to me as well as not having the embarrassment.
Now on to the love life.. It definitely hit a slow spot but then again I was not really all to into either. But I did go out with a new guy last night. Things went well, we just met for drinks and it was an early night as he had to work but he has called me today already so I guess I did not scare him off too much. I am also supposed to go out with another guy tonight maybe but we will see if that pans out .. if not tonight though I am sure we will go out another night. But I am just gonna chill out on it and what happens, happens i am just not gonna stress over it..
Well I guess that is all for now.
Think thin Talk to you later
How was everyones Christas
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Good Intentions Part 2
Well as I am sure you can remember back awhile ago I did a good intentions post.. Well guess what? That post while it was a good intention, Did not do much for me...lol.. I still have the same issues.. I wake up every morning, I have good intentions as to what I want to do but as the day wears on things go to the way side as I get side tracked very easily. Maybe I just have adult A.D.D.. who knows. So once again I am gonna try to work on this. I would rather start now and call this a jump start on my new years resolution that way I may actually do it because as we all know those resolutions start with a bang but then fizzle really fast. I am gonna try to accomplish one small thing everyday that is above and beyond what I have to do anyways I am gonna try and post my intention every morning and if the next day I tell you that I did not do it then you all must jump all over my ass about it.
Today's good intention is that I MUST get my butt over to the local gym and Sign up for 1 month of gym time.. A work out is a must today and hopefully at least 4x a week after that. My skin is getting rather flabby and I think is creating the massive illusion that I am still covered in fat.. I mean when I get into the bathtub I wonder which has more waves, the water or my lose skin..lol.. Anyways this is something I have said for ages now and this is the day I am gonna do it.. I really am wanting to get these last pounds off my body that 199 by 2009 is really sticking in my head. ( Although you would not guess that by how much I ate this week so far)
Also, I think my dating days are done for now. I have talked to a few people but nothing has excited me. The guys I would like to talk to want nothing to do with me and the one I don't want, Who are probably all the desperate ones that think the might have a shot with me, are the ones who are the persistent ones that do not go away.. even after I tell them I am not interested. I just give up and figure that I need to chill out for awhile and maybe try again at 199.. or maybe I am just too friggin picky.. But that is something I will just ponder another day ..
Well that is all she wrote for today.. Talk to you later
Think Thin
Today's good intention is that I MUST get my butt over to the local gym and Sign up for 1 month of gym time.. A work out is a must today and hopefully at least 4x a week after that. My skin is getting rather flabby and I think is creating the massive illusion that I am still covered in fat.. I mean when I get into the bathtub I wonder which has more waves, the water or my lose skin..lol.. Anyways this is something I have said for ages now and this is the day I am gonna do it.. I really am wanting to get these last pounds off my body that 199 by 2009 is really sticking in my head. ( Although you would not guess that by how much I ate this week so far)
Also, I think my dating days are done for now. I have talked to a few people but nothing has excited me. The guys I would like to talk to want nothing to do with me and the one I don't want, Who are probably all the desperate ones that think the might have a shot with me, are the ones who are the persistent ones that do not go away.. even after I tell them I am not interested. I just give up and figure that I need to chill out for awhile and maybe try again at 199.. or maybe I am just too friggin picky.. But that is something I will just ponder another day ..
Well that is all she wrote for today.. Talk to you later
Think Thin
Friday, December 12, 2008
weigh day week 29
Well a good news post today.. really shocked me actually as I have not been eating very healthy the past week and I expected to probably gain some weight or at the most just not lose anything.. But to my surprise.
This weeks weight loss -5 lbs
Total weight loss to date -121 lbs..
Not bad, not bad at all..
what do you think the chances are that I can lose 19 lbs by New Years Eve? That would pretty much be a pound a day which I am thinking is not going to happen but boy would I be geeked if it did... Man would that not be sweet..199 in 2009.. So I am gonna try .. I have nothing better to do with my time right now anyways so I might as well put all my efforts into losing the poundage. I just need to totally focus on protein, protein, protein.. the more protein, the more weight I should lose. maybe do a day on nothing but protein shakes and then a day off for normal foods.. Any bet takers here.. Money always motivates me...lol ..
Well have a good weekend everyone..
Think Thin!!!
This weeks weight loss -5 lbs
Total weight loss to date -121 lbs..
Not bad, not bad at all..
what do you think the chances are that I can lose 19 lbs by New Years Eve? That would pretty much be a pound a day which I am thinking is not going to happen but boy would I be geeked if it did... Man would that not be sweet..199 in 2009.. So I am gonna try .. I have nothing better to do with my time right now anyways so I might as well put all my efforts into losing the poundage. I just need to totally focus on protein, protein, protein.. the more protein, the more weight I should lose. maybe do a day on nothing but protein shakes and then a day off for normal foods.. Any bet takers here.. Money always motivates me...lol ..
Well have a good weekend everyone..
Think Thin!!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Hmmmmmm
What to write about...I am just not sure anymore.. I hate talking about my depression which I am still suffering from with a vengeance.. Some time I feel like it may be getting better but then something happens that sets me off again and tears start to flow and they don't stop like tonight for instance.. the tears are flowing like the Niagara falls. But I have decided after this post that I am no longer gonna talk about it..for reason within myself that I am not gonna share. Tomorrow morning I am gonna get on the horn and get me some drugs or whatever I need, no matter what the costs because I obviously am not able to deal with my issue myself.
I did go to my support group meeting the other night and it was very nice.. It was a much smaller group of people and you basically just did a round table talk about anything and everything. I did discuss my depression with them and they all were very supportive. I will continue with going to this meeting as it was very nice to meet people in a smaller group who have been there and done that.. It was comforting to talk to people about the surgery and the expectations of what you had before surgery and the reality of what really happens after the surgery.. The reality is the surgery drops weight but no matter how many people in the past who have said, " if only you would lose a few pounds"..... it doesn't drop the weight that you have carrying on shoulders and on your mind.. That is a much deeper issue and needs a totally different fix. Which I knew but I guess I did not know just how much until recently..and I pretty much hold everything in and not talk about things.
and gee to make a person feel even better about themselves I was online looking at the profiles of different men tonight.. On this site that I belong to whenever you look at someone it will tell that person that you looked, you then have the option of contacting them or not. Well I looked at this guy and decided he would not someone I would be interested in and moved on..no harm no Foul, so I thought.. I mean I did not contact him so I was not interested.. Would you believe the jerk emailed me and said " thanks but I am not interested in BIG women" Boy I wanted to email him back a piece of my mind but I just left it alone.. But it really kinda hurt, I know it should not matter as he is no one to me but because of my fragile mental state I am taking thing way more personal then I probably should... I mean here after I have lost 116lbs I am still BIG.. Boy if he would have seen me before.. And as you have probably guessed because I have not spoke of Jerry at all.. he has dumped me, after seeing him the last time and listening to all his sweet words to me, etc, etc... he apparently changed his mind within hours and I have not heard from him.. Another blow.. as I really liked him.. It, of course, has me questioning myself and what is wrong with me.. But as My cousin Michelle pointed out. I should not question what is wrong with me and question what is wrong with him..and for that matter what is wrong with any other man who treats women like that.. But I have to tell you I just don't get it..I don't understand how men can act one way, say things and then instantaneously change their mind. But I guess I need to just get past it, but being that mind is so screwed up right now it is hard to NOT dwell on it. And that I guess is all I have to say about that!!
Well I guess I am gonna stop writing now because the way I feeling I could just doom and gloom all night long and well I am guessing that no one wants to hear it anymore. So the next post will be strictly positive no matter how I feel...Maybe if I write positive I will think positive..
I did go to my support group meeting the other night and it was very nice.. It was a much smaller group of people and you basically just did a round table talk about anything and everything. I did discuss my depression with them and they all were very supportive. I will continue with going to this meeting as it was very nice to meet people in a smaller group who have been there and done that.. It was comforting to talk to people about the surgery and the expectations of what you had before surgery and the reality of what really happens after the surgery.. The reality is the surgery drops weight but no matter how many people in the past who have said, " if only you would lose a few pounds"..... it doesn't drop the weight that you have carrying on shoulders and on your mind.. That is a much deeper issue and needs a totally different fix. Which I knew but I guess I did not know just how much until recently..and I pretty much hold everything in and not talk about things.
and gee to make a person feel even better about themselves I was online looking at the profiles of different men tonight.. On this site that I belong to whenever you look at someone it will tell that person that you looked, you then have the option of contacting them or not. Well I looked at this guy and decided he would not someone I would be interested in and moved on..no harm no Foul, so I thought.. I mean I did not contact him so I was not interested.. Would you believe the jerk emailed me and said " thanks but I am not interested in BIG women" Boy I wanted to email him back a piece of my mind but I just left it alone.. But it really kinda hurt, I know it should not matter as he is no one to me but because of my fragile mental state I am taking thing way more personal then I probably should... I mean here after I have lost 116lbs I am still BIG.. Boy if he would have seen me before.. And as you have probably guessed because I have not spoke of Jerry at all.. he has dumped me, after seeing him the last time and listening to all his sweet words to me, etc, etc... he apparently changed his mind within hours and I have not heard from him.. Another blow.. as I really liked him.. It, of course, has me questioning myself and what is wrong with me.. But as My cousin Michelle pointed out. I should not question what is wrong with me and question what is wrong with him..and for that matter what is wrong with any other man who treats women like that.. But I have to tell you I just don't get it..I don't understand how men can act one way, say things and then instantaneously change their mind. But I guess I need to just get past it, but being that mind is so screwed up right now it is hard to NOT dwell on it. And that I guess is all I have to say about that!!
Well I guess I am gonna stop writing now because the way I feeling I could just doom and gloom all night long and well I am guessing that no one wants to hear it anymore. So the next post will be strictly positive no matter how I feel...Maybe if I write positive I will think positive..
Sunday, December 7, 2008
well the weekend was uneventfully. I am still stuck in a bad way right now.. Saturday I was coping ok but here today Sunday night I have spent most of the day crying.. I did not really get off the couch much which of course is the worst thing.. I kept telling myself to get up and clean or do something but the motivation was just not there. I hate this feeling and am not doing a very good job shaking it off. But Monday is a new day an I swear to myself that I WILL get it together. I did find a bariatric support group meeting that I am gonna go to Monday night and hopefully that will help. I have ate crappy food all weekend and of course that is not making me feel all great either. I swear that tomorrow I will get it together specially in the food department I need to crack down and get over this little plateau of no real weight loss to speak of. I have the last 25lbs to lose, 50lbs if I am really lucky and I will be done. It is the bright spot of my life to have lost 3/4 of the weight that I need to lose and if you look at the big picture of that, I am sooooo close.. now if I could get the other parts of my life to be bright spots.. It is very sad for me to be feeling this way.. I guess maybe it has to do with the holidays coming up, I know many people struggle or maybe it is winter blues.. I don't know but I need to find out. I feel like a big loser going through all this and specially talking about it. I know people are getting very tired of hearing me whine all the time and well quite frankly I am getting tired of hearing me whine all the time too..but I guess not tired enough.. I did try to get my prescription for Anti-depressants filled but the prescription expired so I guess the only way to get more would be to go to the doctors, which as I said before I don't have the money right now to do that. My mind is such a jumbled mess.. It never stops thinking about everything and anything and mostly bad or sad things.
well I guess I probably have said to much as it is, you people are probably starting to think I am a huge nuts case, and you might be right. I need to toughen up quick..
A poem I found
Slowly drowning in my sorrow
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I am in an ocean of doubt and despair,
gradually sinking and gasping for air.
Knowing life is not a light switch you can flip on and off
Simply settling and accepting I have to carry on.
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact
out of fear of how those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a woman, burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to have a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I,
makes me afraid and let out defeated sighs.
Since it seems like things will always be this way,
its frustrating because I have to go through it day after day.
Yet, when my quandaries are more than I can bare,
I can at least take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are, and so do I.
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge, from giving up and giving in.
well I guess I probably have said to much as it is, you people are probably starting to think I am a huge nuts case, and you might be right. I need to toughen up quick..
A poem I found
Slowly drowning in my sorrow
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I am in an ocean of doubt and despair,
gradually sinking and gasping for air.
Knowing life is not a light switch you can flip on and off
Simply settling and accepting I have to carry on.
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact
out of fear of how those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a woman, burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to have a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I,
makes me afraid and let out defeated sighs.
Since it seems like things will always be this way,
its frustrating because I have to go through it day after day.
Yet, when my quandaries are more than I can bare,
I can at least take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are, and so do I.
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge, from giving up and giving in.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Depression
I have suffered with it on & off most of my life I think.. And I guess now is just no exception. I guess that is also why I have been pretty lax on my postings lately too. Just have not had the heart or ambition to write much about anything.. It has been coming on for awhile now and I have tried to fight it off but lately it has been winning the battle. I seriously am pretty much hating my life... no joke.. I really thought losing weight was gonna help me out and in many ways it really has yet in many ways my mind is still as fucked up as ever if not more in some areas.. I feel beat up, put down, let down, looked down upon, etc. etc. etc.. Nothing is ever right, nothing is ever good enough and certainly nothing ever can be simple..I have spent the last few days crying in silence and alone with the exception of yesterday, yesterday it became to much and I could not keep in under control until I got the help of Xanax. It is enough to make a person insane which is something I think I may be very close too.. well probably not but it sure seems that way. I really thought things would be a bit different by now.. including my love life.. I know things like that don;t happen over night but you know what.. I have been single my whole life, I watch people get married divorced and married again and yet here we go another holiday season and I am once again alone... Jerry whom I do really like, has is own issues right now So at this moment I am gonna back way off on that .. while I will continue to talk with him and see him once in awhile I think he needs to clear his own head and well I don't need his problems at the moment either. I really am just sick to death of being by myself all the time.. Sure I have friends, I have relatives but it is just not the same and I always end up being a 3rd wheel. and please no one tell me about it will happen someday, Mr right is out there because I just don't want to hear it..I have been patient and well I guess my patience has pretty much begun to run out and I am not just talking about the last few months I am talking about since friggin puberty..
What else can I rant about.. Lets talk about the economy, It friggin sucks. I am stressed to the max every month for bills and how to keep things paid, I really spend no money on myself as I really have none to spare for that. including the fact that I have very few clothes that fit (which is a good thing) but bad because wearing clothes that hang off you is not pleasing to the eye either. My hunting trips thank god cost me pretty much nothing as I went with others and the trips are probably what kept me from going off the deep end sooner.. lol
Even my animals have been giving me issues.. The friggin cat has all of a sudden decided that it doesn't want to use its liter box and has decided to piss on every friggin throw rug or loose clothing article, shoe or whatever that it finds on the floor. I have had to clean up that mess and smell which of course does not make me happy. I have now locked it in a large metal crate with its toys, litter box and bed to re-train her.. if that does not work then well.... anyone want a cat???because she will have to go.. or be the outside barn cat that she was supposed to be to begin with.
and well let see what else.. Oh today is weight day !!
I gained 1.5lbs.. But you know what that really does not bother me much at all. It will come off and if you have not guessed by now I am PMS'ing..
So I guess I am going to have to see about getting my Prozac refilled but who has money to go to the doctors for that.. and I am just gonna have to make more of an effort to pull myself up.. I have done it before and I will do it again.. I think I am gonna take $25.00 and spend it on myself and join the local gym.. I really need to go and maybe I can work off my frustrations. Also, my sister pointed out that maybe in the mornings I can focus more on hair and makeup (she mentioned clothes too but there really is not much I can do about that I do lurk at the resale shops but never seem to have too much luck..) Maybe fixing my hair better will give me a boost.
I guess I am done ranting for now. Sorry I am such a nut case..
It will get better..
What else can I rant about.. Lets talk about the economy, It friggin sucks. I am stressed to the max every month for bills and how to keep things paid, I really spend no money on myself as I really have none to spare for that. including the fact that I have very few clothes that fit (which is a good thing) but bad because wearing clothes that hang off you is not pleasing to the eye either. My hunting trips thank god cost me pretty much nothing as I went with others and the trips are probably what kept me from going off the deep end sooner.. lol
Even my animals have been giving me issues.. The friggin cat has all of a sudden decided that it doesn't want to use its liter box and has decided to piss on every friggin throw rug or loose clothing article, shoe or whatever that it finds on the floor. I have had to clean up that mess and smell which of course does not make me happy. I have now locked it in a large metal crate with its toys, litter box and bed to re-train her.. if that does not work then well.... anyone want a cat???because she will have to go.. or be the outside barn cat that she was supposed to be to begin with.
and well let see what else.. Oh today is weight day !!
I gained 1.5lbs.. But you know what that really does not bother me much at all. It will come off and if you have not guessed by now I am PMS'ing..
So I guess I am going to have to see about getting my Prozac refilled but who has money to go to the doctors for that.. and I am just gonna have to make more of an effort to pull myself up.. I have done it before and I will do it again.. I think I am gonna take $25.00 and spend it on myself and join the local gym.. I really need to go and maybe I can work off my frustrations. Also, my sister pointed out that maybe in the mornings I can focus more on hair and makeup (she mentioned clothes too but there really is not much I can do about that I do lurk at the resale shops but never seem to have too much luck..) Maybe fixing my hair better will give me a boost.
I guess I am done ranting for now. Sorry I am such a nut case..
It will get better..
Monday, December 1, 2008
HOLY SNOW!!!!
Boy was it nasty out last night and today. We are really getting dumped on. Last night when I left up- North it took me almost 5-1/2 hours to drive home.. This is normally a 2-1/2-3 hour trip. So I was pretty white knuckled and snow blind by the time I got home. Thank god for 4-wheel drive..lol..
Well the weekend was pretty good, nothing extremely out of the ordinary happened but I just so love it up-north.. I hate to leave whenever I go up there. I did manage to take a small doe Saturday night (Sorry Alan.. Bambi did not live) so there will be some meat in the freezer this winter. The only real bummer part of the weekend was that I did Not get to spend to much time with Jerry he was pretty sick and then had to work some crazy hours, so I only ended up spending about 5-6 hours with him yesterday. I actually was thinking that I was getting blown off or dumped but that I guess was just my brain working overtime and me just learning about his personality and him about mine. The time we did spend together was very nice, I actually went out hunting with him on his property last night and watched him take a very nice Spike horn.. Gee kinda funny when you think about it, most new couple go to movies and dinner.. We go to the woods, watch nature and shoot dinner...lol.. Well anyways, I am OK with how things are progressing, I think now I have actually know him for one month. But I guess the real test will be when hunting season is over and I am no longer going up-north that much.. But for now I still have December bow hunting and muzzle loading yet.
Now on to weight stuff.. Since I missed weigh in on Friday I weighed in this morning
weight loss -1 lb
total weight loss - 118lbs..
I had a very eye opening experiences this past weekend that really I think put the fire in me.. I have been very lax about my vitamins and proteins again and over the weekend I noticed how it is really effecting me. Specially when it comes to my strength .. I have always been a pretty strong person and I know allot of that had to do with 118lbs worth of extra leverage but I know that just because I lost that doesn't mean I should be as weak as I am... For instance, I went and picked up a round bale of hay for my horses to eat all weekend. I have done this hundreds of times. I put the bale in my truck, drive it to the field and push it out.. I could NOT for the life of me get that bale out of my truck. I pushed, I pulled, I lifted and it was just not happening after about 45 mins I was worn out and had to resort to asking a neighbor to help. Also, I went out to help my brother cut wood.. I could NOT lift what I normally would have had no problem doing, I had to take smaller loads and smaller pieces and was just plan ole worn out in a matter of minutes. I am 100% positive this has to do with my lack of protein and that my body is probably literally eating my muscles to get the protein that is needed.. So the moral of this story is that I need to get my ass in gear and get back to doing what I am supposed to be doing. I hate feeling like a weakling, being able to be strong and being able to do the Physical work that I used to do is something that I did take pride in.. It was something that I could do better then most women and to me that was very important.. As I might not have the looks, or as much brain smarts but I could certainly physically out work most women and too me that was my little edge. I know , I know, a little therapy needed on this issues but hey there could be worse things.
Well I guess I rambled on enough for today..
I hope all of you had a very good holiday weekend.
Take care, MEchele
Well the weekend was pretty good, nothing extremely out of the ordinary happened but I just so love it up-north.. I hate to leave whenever I go up there. I did manage to take a small doe Saturday night (Sorry Alan.. Bambi did not live) so there will be some meat in the freezer this winter. The only real bummer part of the weekend was that I did Not get to spend to much time with Jerry he was pretty sick and then had to work some crazy hours, so I only ended up spending about 5-6 hours with him yesterday. I actually was thinking that I was getting blown off or dumped but that I guess was just my brain working overtime and me just learning about his personality and him about mine. The time we did spend together was very nice, I actually went out hunting with him on his property last night and watched him take a very nice Spike horn.. Gee kinda funny when you think about it, most new couple go to movies and dinner.. We go to the woods, watch nature and shoot dinner...lol.. Well anyways, I am OK with how things are progressing, I think now I have actually know him for one month. But I guess the real test will be when hunting season is over and I am no longer going up-north that much.. But for now I still have December bow hunting and muzzle loading yet.
Now on to weight stuff.. Since I missed weigh in on Friday I weighed in this morning
weight loss -1 lb
total weight loss - 118lbs..
I had a very eye opening experiences this past weekend that really I think put the fire in me.. I have been very lax about my vitamins and proteins again and over the weekend I noticed how it is really effecting me. Specially when it comes to my strength .. I have always been a pretty strong person and I know allot of that had to do with 118lbs worth of extra leverage but I know that just because I lost that doesn't mean I should be as weak as I am... For instance, I went and picked up a round bale of hay for my horses to eat all weekend. I have done this hundreds of times. I put the bale in my truck, drive it to the field and push it out.. I could NOT for the life of me get that bale out of my truck. I pushed, I pulled, I lifted and it was just not happening after about 45 mins I was worn out and had to resort to asking a neighbor to help. Also, I went out to help my brother cut wood.. I could NOT lift what I normally would have had no problem doing, I had to take smaller loads and smaller pieces and was just plan ole worn out in a matter of minutes. I am 100% positive this has to do with my lack of protein and that my body is probably literally eating my muscles to get the protein that is needed.. So the moral of this story is that I need to get my ass in gear and get back to doing what I am supposed to be doing. I hate feeling like a weakling, being able to be strong and being able to do the Physical work that I used to do is something that I did take pride in.. It was something that I could do better then most women and to me that was very important.. As I might not have the looks, or as much brain smarts but I could certainly physically out work most women and too me that was my little edge. I know , I know, a little therapy needed on this issues but hey there could be worse things.
Well I guess I rambled on enough for today..
I hope all of you had a very good holiday weekend.
Take care, MEchele
Sunday, November 23, 2008
sorry guys
Sorry everyone, I have been super slack on my postings lately. Things are just a bit weird right now and well half the time I wonder whether I am coming or going. My mind is just so scattered lately and I just can;t seem to get a grip on things..
But I just got back again from Up-north for another weekend of deer hunting.. Once again I got skunked but I am leaving again on Weds evening and will have the entire Thanksgiving weekend to try my luck some more. I did see deer this weekend but nothing I was able to get a shot at and of course got a ton of exercise and fresh air so it is all worth it. I so love it up-north. I wish to hell I could chuck everything and move up there and not look back!!
Well as far as my health goes I am getting a bit worried. This past week I have been really having issues with nauseousness and have had trouble with eating. I can only eat a few bites and then I get stomach pains. Like for instance I just had some chicken and rice.. Ate about 3 bites and the stomach pains started as well as vomiting. It is really making me wonder, I am over due for my check up so I guess I need to get in there and see what they say. It is not happening every time I eat but quite often and I am not seeing any pattern with any certain type of foods triggering it. I also have been pretty stressed out lately so I am almost wondering if that may have something to do with it. So I guess I am just gonna keep close tabs on it and see what happens .
Now for some dating update, I spent quite a bit of time with Jerry again this weekend. he really does seem to be a nice guy, We spent Sunday hunting together so that was pretty cool. He really does seem pretty cool so I guess we will just continue the way it is for now and see what happens. The real test will be when Hunting season is over and I am no longer driving up-north for the weekends.. I guess we will see then just how serious he is about wanting to see me then. I mean he seems very genuine but for me actions speaks louder then words... I am not very trusting when it comes to men and what they say so hopefully he will prove me wrong.
I know I did not post a weigh in on Friday either so I will go ahead and post what I weighed in at this morning .
Official loss of -2 lbs this week
Total weight loss -117 lbs
Not too bad.. I guess the days of big numbers are gone but hey a steady 2 lb per week weight loss will be just fine for me. I mean it all adds up in the end. I am told that the majority of the weight I will lose will all be in the 1st year so if you consider that factor I have about 22 more weeks to go and at 2 lbs per week average that will be another 44 lbs and that I would be totally happy with.
Well I guess that is all for now.. I will really try to keep up better with my postings at least after the Thanksgiving holiday.. Then everything will settle down some and I should be able to post more.
Everyone have a good one.
And as usually I am looking for work so if anyone hears anything pass it on my way..
But I just got back again from Up-north for another weekend of deer hunting.. Once again I got skunked but I am leaving again on Weds evening and will have the entire Thanksgiving weekend to try my luck some more. I did see deer this weekend but nothing I was able to get a shot at and of course got a ton of exercise and fresh air so it is all worth it. I so love it up-north. I wish to hell I could chuck everything and move up there and not look back!!
Well as far as my health goes I am getting a bit worried. This past week I have been really having issues with nauseousness and have had trouble with eating. I can only eat a few bites and then I get stomach pains. Like for instance I just had some chicken and rice.. Ate about 3 bites and the stomach pains started as well as vomiting. It is really making me wonder, I am over due for my check up so I guess I need to get in there and see what they say. It is not happening every time I eat but quite often and I am not seeing any pattern with any certain type of foods triggering it. I also have been pretty stressed out lately so I am almost wondering if that may have something to do with it. So I guess I am just gonna keep close tabs on it and see what happens .
Now for some dating update, I spent quite a bit of time with Jerry again this weekend. he really does seem to be a nice guy, We spent Sunday hunting together so that was pretty cool. He really does seem pretty cool so I guess we will just continue the way it is for now and see what happens. The real test will be when Hunting season is over and I am no longer driving up-north for the weekends.. I guess we will see then just how serious he is about wanting to see me then. I mean he seems very genuine but for me actions speaks louder then words... I am not very trusting when it comes to men and what they say so hopefully he will prove me wrong.
I know I did not post a weigh in on Friday either so I will go ahead and post what I weighed in at this morning .
Official loss of -2 lbs this week
Total weight loss -117 lbs
Not too bad.. I guess the days of big numbers are gone but hey a steady 2 lb per week weight loss will be just fine for me. I mean it all adds up in the end. I am told that the majority of the weight I will lose will all be in the 1st year so if you consider that factor I have about 22 more weeks to go and at 2 lbs per week average that will be another 44 lbs and that I would be totally happy with.
Well I guess that is all for now.. I will really try to keep up better with my postings at least after the Thanksgiving holiday.. Then everything will settle down some and I should be able to post more.
Everyone have a good one.
And as usually I am looking for work so if anyone hears anything pass it on my way..
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
I am back !!!
Hey all . Sorry for the delay.. My mind as been going a mile a minute and well most of what is going through it is not good. But Hey I will get over it I always do..
Anyways the hunt was fun. I missed 2 bucks ( the 4-legged kind) One opening morning and then another on Sunday night.. Boy that sure pissed me off.. I got buck fever and did not take my time when going for the shot. But hey at least I saw something most everyone else went the whole weekend without seeing anything. I do need to give kudos to my nephew Cody, he got his first buck on Saturday night.. I could not have been more proud!!! It is moments like that I wish my father was still alive to be able to see it. I will be going back up north for the Thanksgiving weekend so hopefully I will get something then.
Now on for the 2-legged buck story.. I met Jerry up there and spent a bit of time with him. He is really a nice guy, in a goofy up-north kinda way, very quiet and soft spoken( which we all know is the opposite of me) but he really seems to like me for who I am.. Actually tells me quite often that I am pretty and sexy..lol.. ( I tell him that he must have pretty low standards lol.. he of course swears that he doesn't) He is very supportive of my surgery which is really appreciative and actually has a brother who had the surgery a month before me. He seems to be a very hard worker and did not think twice about helping me with anything that I needed done. He was very sweet!! and most importantly and those who know me know I say this all the time. He is way more manlier then me...lol..... He took me to his home and I met his mother and some of his family members so he must be serious about getting to know me further.. So I guess we will just see where it goes and take it from there,... I just really have an issue with the long distance thing, but I guess why dwell on what I can't change.
I got on the scale when I got home wondering if I dropped any extra weight and was surprised to only have lost 1 pound.. I am not making that an official loss though until my normal weigh day of Friday. I was very active over the weekend and my body is super sore.. My legs, arms, neck back, butt, you name it it is sore.. I guess it is from all the tromping around in the woods loaded down with rifles, ammo, and 30 lbs of clothing. Can you imagine how I would be if I still had the 115lbs of fat still clinging to me.. I would have been a heart attack waiting to happen. Thank god I am smaller then I was.. and I am so looking forward to getting even smaller.. I can't wait to reach that 199 mark... it seems so close but yet so far..
Well I Guess that is it for now. Once again though I am asking you to all keep me in mind for an job opportunities that you may know of or if you need any mortgage info..
Talk to you all soon !! Mechele
Anyways the hunt was fun. I missed 2 bucks ( the 4-legged kind) One opening morning and then another on Sunday night.. Boy that sure pissed me off.. I got buck fever and did not take my time when going for the shot. But hey at least I saw something most everyone else went the whole weekend without seeing anything. I do need to give kudos to my nephew Cody, he got his first buck on Saturday night.. I could not have been more proud!!! It is moments like that I wish my father was still alive to be able to see it. I will be going back up north for the Thanksgiving weekend so hopefully I will get something then.
Now on for the 2-legged buck story.. I met Jerry up there and spent a bit of time with him. He is really a nice guy, in a goofy up-north kinda way, very quiet and soft spoken( which we all know is the opposite of me) but he really seems to like me for who I am.. Actually tells me quite often that I am pretty and sexy..lol.. ( I tell him that he must have pretty low standards lol.. he of course swears that he doesn't) He is very supportive of my surgery which is really appreciative and actually has a brother who had the surgery a month before me. He seems to be a very hard worker and did not think twice about helping me with anything that I needed done. He was very sweet!! and most importantly and those who know me know I say this all the time. He is way more manlier then me...lol..... He took me to his home and I met his mother and some of his family members so he must be serious about getting to know me further.. So I guess we will just see where it goes and take it from there,... I just really have an issue with the long distance thing, but I guess why dwell on what I can't change.
I got on the scale when I got home wondering if I dropped any extra weight and was surprised to only have lost 1 pound.. I am not making that an official loss though until my normal weigh day of Friday. I was very active over the weekend and my body is super sore.. My legs, arms, neck back, butt, you name it it is sore.. I guess it is from all the tromping around in the woods loaded down with rifles, ammo, and 30 lbs of clothing. Can you imagine how I would be if I still had the 115lbs of fat still clinging to me.. I would have been a heart attack waiting to happen. Thank god I am smaller then I was.. and I am so looking forward to getting even smaller.. I can't wait to reach that 199 mark... it seems so close but yet so far..
Well I Guess that is it for now. Once again though I am asking you to all keep me in mind for an job opportunities that you may know of or if you need any mortgage info..
Talk to you all soon !! Mechele
Thursday, November 13, 2008
It's Hunting Time
Yes the day is here and I am leaving this afternoon for a weekend of hunting.. I am so looking forward to it..It is gonna feel so nice to be able to go out in the woods and not be lugging my big fat ass around the woods like before and be able to climb up and down tree stands with no problems.. I just hope that I actually see something to shoot. And well let me be honest a woman in a typically mans sport.. I will pretty much be able to get me both a 4 legged and 2 legged buck...lol...
But no actually I am also kinda excited to be going for another reason.. I told you a while back about a guy that I met through the web that lives up north and seemed like a pretty good potential. What I have not told you is that I am still talking with him and I will be also spending some time with him this weekend. How much, who knows?? but I really have kinda a good feeling about this one so we will see what happens.. I am anxious to spend more time with him to see just exactly how well we click.
Since I am not gonna be near a computer this weekend or particularly tomorrow for my weigh in I did it a day early.. I am glad to say that this week I have lost
Weight Loss -3lbs
Total weight loss -115lbs
It is still coming off, so that is exciting news. I know that it is definitely slowing down but hey I will take every little bit that comes my way.. This weekend I will be curious to see what I kind of numbers I pull since I will be very active and I usually I drop big numbers when I have weekends like that.
Also, I would like to touch on something that my fellow blogger Alan mentioned to me on my last post.. Something that I did not really think about to much until he brought it up.. The picture of me and My dog Porter is a great photo.. I just love my dog.. but anyways I was squatting down with him.. This as a general rule is not something most anyone thinks about.. But for me this is HUGE.. Before my surgery I could not squat, it was impossible!!! My knees could not handle my weight nor was it ever a pretty sight to see me getting back up.. So anytime I needed anything from below it was bend over and kill my back, not to mention everyone getting the view of my huge butt. Now after losing 115lbs I can squat down and not have to suffer the pain and embarrassment of getting back up. You just really can't imagine how something so simple can be such an accomplishment. Anyways just wanted to bring that up..
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend.. I will be back Tuesday with what I hope is exciting news of my weekend hunt..
Everyone have a great weekend..
Oh And well I hate to put this on here but beggar's can't be chooser. I am need of some extra cash flow.. anybody who knows of any job leads, whatever it is, could you pass them along to me? Thanks.
But no actually I am also kinda excited to be going for another reason.. I told you a while back about a guy that I met through the web that lives up north and seemed like a pretty good potential. What I have not told you is that I am still talking with him and I will be also spending some time with him this weekend. How much, who knows?? but I really have kinda a good feeling about this one so we will see what happens.. I am anxious to spend more time with him to see just exactly how well we click.
Since I am not gonna be near a computer this weekend or particularly tomorrow for my weigh in I did it a day early.. I am glad to say that this week I have lost
Weight Loss -3lbs
Total weight loss -115lbs
It is still coming off, so that is exciting news. I know that it is definitely slowing down but hey I will take every little bit that comes my way.. This weekend I will be curious to see what I kind of numbers I pull since I will be very active and I usually I drop big numbers when I have weekends like that.
Also, I would like to touch on something that my fellow blogger Alan mentioned to me on my last post.. Something that I did not really think about to much until he brought it up.. The picture of me and My dog Porter is a great photo.. I just love my dog.. but anyways I was squatting down with him.. This as a general rule is not something most anyone thinks about.. But for me this is HUGE.. Before my surgery I could not squat, it was impossible!!! My knees could not handle my weight nor was it ever a pretty sight to see me getting back up.. So anytime I needed anything from below it was bend over and kill my back, not to mention everyone getting the view of my huge butt. Now after losing 115lbs I can squat down and not have to suffer the pain and embarrassment of getting back up. You just really can't imagine how something so simple can be such an accomplishment. Anyways just wanted to bring that up..
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend.. I will be back Tuesday with what I hope is exciting news of my weekend hunt..
Everyone have a great weekend..
Oh And well I hate to put this on here but beggar's can't be chooser. I am need of some extra cash flow.. anybody who knows of any job leads, whatever it is, could you pass them along to me? Thanks.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Well another week is here
And I am looking forward to it hopefully flying by.. I have allot of stuff to keep me busy this week so I hope it will make things go faster .. I am leaving Thursday afternoon to go hunting so there is allot of preparation involved in that.. I am very excited to go hunting again as it has been a long time.
Here is a picture of me from Sunday. Me and my brother were target practicing with our rifles to get ready for the big day... Gee and I wonder why I can't find a man.. This pictures is enough to probably scare anyone.. lol..
The weekend was good, I got to spend allot of time with out-of-state family and well the party Saturday night was a bunch of fun.. Lots of drinking (I know, I know I am not supposed to but I gave up everything else I figure I can cheat a bit on the drinking thing) and a whole bunch of dancing which those who know me, know that I love to dance.. I wish there was some kind of exercise class I could do the just involves dancing..I would never get tired of that..
Sunday my Brother, sister in-law and myself hung around a bit doing some stuff. My sister-in-law took some photos of me so here are a few for you to see
Me & TJ
Anyways. I hope everyone had a great weekend and has a stress free week to come.
Talk to you all later..
Me-chele
Friday, November 7, 2008
I feel good...
and I look good too.. Sorry for the delay.. I had my hair cut and colored today and well nothing like having that done to make you feel good.. My stylist had not seen me in quite awhile and he was full of compliments as well as another guy who works there, he had no idea who I was and when he finally realized it was me he was like WOW!!! you look terrific.. Talk about some major ego boosting..
Now for the weeks weight loss. I did not do as good as I hoped but I also have to admit that I did not try as hard as I said I would either. I did increase my protein quite a bit and really made sure I took all my vitamins so that is a good thing..
So the results of this week are..
Weight loss -2lbs
Grand total -112lbs gone ... Wow ... it is really amazing every time I write it.
Last week I was talking with my youngest nephew (he just turned 13) and he said he weighed that much (112lbs) and I was like geeze I lost a whole person so far.. When you look at it from that angle, I mean actually seeing a physical person who weighs as much as I have lost it is very amazing and makes me feel good!! I really can't wait to hit that 199 mark !!
Now on to the weekend.. My cousins are here from TN and I am looking forward to some fun again this weekend. They are here to celebrate their 25th wedding anniversary and are having what will be a great party..Lots of dancing and of course booze and whatever other trouble we can find. I should be very busy and very active.. the theme of their party is to wear all your old bridesmaids and groomsmen outfits. believe it or not I have a old bridesmaid dress that actually fits but just wearing that by itself is not enough for these guys... so since I am 38 and always a bridesmaid never a bride..I am going to wear a gray wig, glasses, have a walker and wear a sign that says old Maid.. LOL. it should be pretty funny..
Well I guess that is all for now, I am really looking forward to my hunting trip that is coming up so that is 6 days and counting..
Talk to you all soon Me-Chele
Now for the weeks weight loss. I did not do as good as I hoped but I also have to admit that I did not try as hard as I said I would either. I did increase my protein quite a bit and really made sure I took all my vitamins so that is a good thing..
So the results of this week are..
Weight loss -2lbs
Grand total -112lbs gone ... Wow ... it is really amazing every time I write it.
Last week I was talking with my youngest nephew (he just turned 13) and he said he weighed that much (112lbs) and I was like geeze I lost a whole person so far.. When you look at it from that angle, I mean actually seeing a physical person who weighs as much as I have lost it is very amazing and makes me feel good!! I really can't wait to hit that 199 mark !!
Now on to the weekend.. My cousins are here from TN and I am looking forward to some fun again this weekend. They are here to celebrate their 25th wedding anniversary and are having what will be a great party..Lots of dancing and of course booze and whatever other trouble we can find. I should be very busy and very active.. the theme of their party is to wear all your old bridesmaids and groomsmen outfits. believe it or not I have a old bridesmaid dress that actually fits but just wearing that by itself is not enough for these guys... so since I am 38 and always a bridesmaid never a bride..I am going to wear a gray wig, glasses, have a walker and wear a sign that says old Maid.. LOL. it should be pretty funny..
Well I guess that is all for now, I am really looking forward to my hunting trip that is coming up so that is 6 days and counting..
Talk to you all soon Me-Chele
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
A sad day for me.
But apparently a happy day for others.. Well I am not really one to want to use my blog site for anything other then my original intention but today I am making just a slight exception.. I am very disappointed that our country choose the president that they did..I really don't understand what people are thinking but I guess there is really not much I can do about it now..So with that being said I just hope and Pray that in a few years I am not gonna be saying "I told you so" and I swear that if I ever hear one more thing about racism among the black and the white from anyone again I will go ballistic... Sorry if that offends anyone but really too bad if it does.
I am in good mood today can you tell...
Anyways on too the weight loss talk.. Doing pretty good this week. Not getting in as much protein as I would like but I have definitely increased it this week so that is a a definite plus.. I made an appt with my hair stylist this Friday so he can evaluate my hair and maybe make some suggestions to keep it from thinning further. Maybe I will just say what the heck with it and get a whole new style for my whole new me. I guess it will all depend on my mood Friday morning.. Hopefully it won;t be a bad mood day as I could be tempted to really do something drastic.. lol.. Britney Spears would have some competition on her hands..lol..
Anyways also onto other news, the dating thing has been going good. I have had my share of being dumped as well as my share of doing the dumping.. I think so far there has been more of the later.. But I have recently met someone who shows some promise, so I am very interested to see where it goes. He seems like a pretty decent guy and we are interested in allot of the same things. Only problem with him right now is distance as he does not live close to me at all but on a brighter note, he lives much further north and well those who know me know that I always say I want to be further north... Oh and he has a brother who had bariatric surgery 1 month before me so he was very supportative of everything and that in itself is a great big plus... So we will see what pans out as time goes on, for all I know he could be full of shit like so many others..
well I guess that is about it today . Catch me on Friday for this weeks weigh in.. I am anxious to see if the scale moves any..
Have a great day
I am in good mood today can you tell...
Anyways on too the weight loss talk.. Doing pretty good this week. Not getting in as much protein as I would like but I have definitely increased it this week so that is a a definite plus.. I made an appt with my hair stylist this Friday so he can evaluate my hair and maybe make some suggestions to keep it from thinning further. Maybe I will just say what the heck with it and get a whole new style for my whole new me. I guess it will all depend on my mood Friday morning.. Hopefully it won;t be a bad mood day as I could be tempted to really do something drastic.. lol.. Britney Spears would have some competition on her hands..lol..
Anyways also onto other news, the dating thing has been going good. I have had my share of being dumped as well as my share of doing the dumping.. I think so far there has been more of the later.. But I have recently met someone who shows some promise, so I am very interested to see where it goes. He seems like a pretty decent guy and we are interested in allot of the same things. Only problem with him right now is distance as he does not live close to me at all but on a brighter note, he lives much further north and well those who know me know that I always say I want to be further north... Oh and he has a brother who had bariatric surgery 1 month before me so he was very supportative of everything and that in itself is a great big plus... So we will see what pans out as time goes on, for all I know he could be full of shit like so many others..
well I guess that is about it today . Catch me on Friday for this weeks weigh in.. I am anxious to see if the scale moves any..
Have a great day
Monday, November 3, 2008
protein, protein. protein
Or lack of it should I say..
Well first off sorry I did not get my post in on Friday.. probably better that I didn't anyways as I was very bad all week food wise and lord know I am not sure if I could have mentally handled any kind of weight gain.. I did not even weigh myself on Friday.. So I did weigh myself today and I am thankfully able to say that I am exactly the same weight as I was the week before...
No loss NO gain..
Now on to my protein, We all know that I have said in the past the I am very lax when it comes to getting my protein in..and I know I have said this before but I am making it my mission starting today to really work hard at getting the protein in... While I still have all my hair.. Over the weekend I really noticed large amounts of hair coming out of my head and while I still have allot of it eventually it is gonna start to take its toll. So I am gonna really force feed the protein this week, I think I am even gonna go back to the basics and just have the protein shakes and bars for food this week and maybe that will even jump start my weight loss again.. Seems like I have been kinda slow in that department for a while now and I really want that 199lb mark in the worst way. I would love to be about 215-210 by November 15th.. (opening day of Hunting season) Now I am really not being realistic with that goal but it gives me something to shoot for.
Now as far as my weekend went, I was pretty tame this weekend and did not do a whole lot of anything particular.. Halloween night was at my brothers scaring all the little kids.. That always brings a smile to my face specially when they cry...lol.. I know, I know that is extremely bad on my part but well I just can;t help myself. I will also be happy to tell you that I did not sample any of the treats...wasn't even tempted. Saturday and Sunday just did some errands and nothing else much. My back was really bothering me still from my fall last weekend so I just thought it best to chill out.
So here we are to another new week.. Hopefully it will bring some excitement and good news specially with the economy and as always...Shameless plug here... If you need any mortgage advice new purchase, refinance, whatever be sure to contact me..
Happy Monday Everyone... Me-chele
Well first off sorry I did not get my post in on Friday.. probably better that I didn't anyways as I was very bad all week food wise and lord know I am not sure if I could have mentally handled any kind of weight gain.. I did not even weigh myself on Friday.. So I did weigh myself today and I am thankfully able to say that I am exactly the same weight as I was the week before...
No loss NO gain..
Now on to my protein, We all know that I have said in the past the I am very lax when it comes to getting my protein in..and I know I have said this before but I am making it my mission starting today to really work hard at getting the protein in... While I still have all my hair.. Over the weekend I really noticed large amounts of hair coming out of my head and while I still have allot of it eventually it is gonna start to take its toll. So I am gonna really force feed the protein this week, I think I am even gonna go back to the basics and just have the protein shakes and bars for food this week and maybe that will even jump start my weight loss again.. Seems like I have been kinda slow in that department for a while now and I really want that 199lb mark in the worst way. I would love to be about 215-210 by November 15th.. (opening day of Hunting season) Now I am really not being realistic with that goal but it gives me something to shoot for.
Now as far as my weekend went, I was pretty tame this weekend and did not do a whole lot of anything particular.. Halloween night was at my brothers scaring all the little kids.. That always brings a smile to my face specially when they cry...lol.. I know, I know that is extremely bad on my part but well I just can;t help myself. I will also be happy to tell you that I did not sample any of the treats...wasn't even tempted. Saturday and Sunday just did some errands and nothing else much. My back was really bothering me still from my fall last weekend so I just thought it best to chill out.
So here we are to another new week.. Hopefully it will bring some excitement and good news specially with the economy and as always...Shameless plug here... If you need any mortgage advice new purchase, refinance, whatever be sure to contact me..
Happy Monday Everyone... Me-chele
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Getting better
Yes I am getting better. The hurt is not as bad as it was yesterday and well I think I will pull through...lol.. Everything still hurts just not quite as bad as it did.. and of course I have the wonderful world of Vicoden ..lol
I will say this.. it is so easy to revert back to your old comfort food eating habits when you are sick and lying around doing nothing. All I wanted was my good old comfort foods.. I know that this weeks weigh in is really gonna be a bad one as I did so much drinking this weekend as well as the fact that I ate some pretty bad foods ( pizza, rally burger) while I was laying on the couch nursing my sore body. So the combinations of crap food with doing nothing I am sure has packed on a couple of pounds. But never fear it will not stay on long!!! I will be back on track and losing weight again before you know it.
Now an update on the man game.. Wouldn't you know it.. The one that I really did not care about one way or the other if I saw again.. (you know the boring one who did not talk..) is the one who has been most persistent in calling me. I will say this much he does talk way more on the phone then he did in person.. and of course me being the person that I am came right out and asked him what the deal was on Saturday night.. Are you really shy or did you just not have anything to say.. he said he was very nervous and well that sometimes he just does not talk that much.. A man of few words I guess.... hmmm most women would probably like that but me I need to be able to get into a good fight once in awhile and I think with this guy I would always be the one making decisions and such and well my moto has been and probably always will be... "I need a man who is manlier then me.." lol Sooo I am thinking that today's phone call will be the last phone call..
Boy I am telling you my self esteem has just quadrupled in the past few weeks.. Imagine what it will be like when I lose 30 more lbs... Lord look out.. Michele is coming to take the world by storm.. I guess I just feel like I have missed out on so much stuff and am ready to have some fun and allot of it. I am comparing myself now to what I was this time last year and boy what a difference. I mean at this time last year I was sitting on the couch contemplating which food to eat and when and what TV show to watch and which one to record for later...Now I am always trying to line up what to do next.. I mean for instance her I am writing this blog while I am also talking to someone about meeting tomorrow night for karaoke at a local place.. I guess Thursday is becoming the new Friday..lol
Well anyhoo I guess this is enough babble for now. Talk to you all Friday for this weeks dreaded weigh day.
I will say this.. it is so easy to revert back to your old comfort food eating habits when you are sick and lying around doing nothing. All I wanted was my good old comfort foods.. I know that this weeks weigh in is really gonna be a bad one as I did so much drinking this weekend as well as the fact that I ate some pretty bad foods ( pizza, rally burger) while I was laying on the couch nursing my sore body. So the combinations of crap food with doing nothing I am sure has packed on a couple of pounds. But never fear it will not stay on long!!! I will be back on track and losing weight again before you know it.
Now an update on the man game.. Wouldn't you know it.. The one that I really did not care about one way or the other if I saw again.. (you know the boring one who did not talk..) is the one who has been most persistent in calling me. I will say this much he does talk way more on the phone then he did in person.. and of course me being the person that I am came right out and asked him what the deal was on Saturday night.. Are you really shy or did you just not have anything to say.. he said he was very nervous and well that sometimes he just does not talk that much.. A man of few words I guess.... hmmm most women would probably like that but me I need to be able to get into a good fight once in awhile and I think with this guy I would always be the one making decisions and such and well my moto has been and probably always will be... "I need a man who is manlier then me.." lol Sooo I am thinking that today's phone call will be the last phone call..
Boy I am telling you my self esteem has just quadrupled in the past few weeks.. Imagine what it will be like when I lose 30 more lbs... Lord look out.. Michele is coming to take the world by storm.. I guess I just feel like I have missed out on so much stuff and am ready to have some fun and allot of it. I am comparing myself now to what I was this time last year and boy what a difference. I mean at this time last year I was sitting on the couch contemplating which food to eat and when and what TV show to watch and which one to record for later...Now I am always trying to line up what to do next.. I mean for instance her I am writing this blog while I am also talking to someone about meeting tomorrow night for karaoke at a local place.. I guess Thursday is becoming the new Friday..lol
Well anyhoo I guess this is enough babble for now. Talk to you all Friday for this weeks dreaded weigh day.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I Hurt !!!
Yes you read correctly I hurt!!...I had such a great weekend. My cousin showed up on Thursday night and we had a great time. Sang some karaoke, did a little dancing and quite allot of drinking. I even managed to get a date for Saturday night ( my cousin wanted to know what it was like to be a 3rd wheel) and well quite frankly I was glad he was there. The guy I was out with, while I will say he was pretty cute and had a super nice ass was boring as all hell. I could not get him to talk and even just asking him straight out questions was like pulling teeth. I figured he was acting that way maybe because he was wanting to get rid of me.. He did not even buy me a drink.. Can you believe it.. So I pretty much figured he was just hanging for an hour or so till he could safely escape, which would have been fine with me... but NOOOO he actually stayed the whole time and did not leave till I left. But by the end of the night he did start to talk more (just a little) and asked me to dance once. When I decided I was ready to leave he did walk me out, gave me a hug and then left. I was for sure figuring I would not hear from him again but guess what? he actually emailed me twice the next day. One saying hello and the other asking if he was just to boring for me... Gee ya think?? But the more I think about it, he could just be incredibly shy and me being the overbearing, fun loving person I am, could easily intimidate a shy person. So the verdict for me is still out on whether I go out with him again. I may give him one more try.
Now to talk about the I hurt.. yes the weekend was great but then all hell broke lose. Went riding on Sunday afternoon. The weather was kinda crappy and I should really have known better but I really wanted to ride. I took tbone out and of course he acted up, to the point where he went completely ballistic on me. I stayed on for as long as I could trying to get control but he finally got the better of me.. (if it was a rodeo I would have made my 8 secs with a great score) and up and OFF I went like a rag doll. I landed on my left back side, I knocked the wind right out of me so I was on the ground and NOT able to get up. Brent thought I was definitely hurt bad. of course that was after he got off the ground from his fall too. When I was able to get up I was having issues walking as my left hip, back and side were not working well. I was having trouble breathing still and it hurt something fierce in the center of my chest between the ribs.. I was a MESS and trying so very hard not to cry.. I hurt that bad. I made it home and then of course was NOT wanting to go to the hospital. After a while however I decided it would be for my best interest to go as I was not entirely sure I had not broken something as well as the pain between my ribs and breathing was getting worse. I was starting to get afraid that I screwed up something in my surgery.. so I figured it was best to go.. And of course there I stayed all evening and until the wee hours in the morning. Thankfully nothing is broken and I am basically just very bruised and battered.. The Doctor said I was gonna feel worse before I got better and she is right. Today is the worst right now. I friggin can't walk upright, turn my neck much, my shoulders and side ,along with my ribs and what I believe is my bruised kidney and sternum are hurting quite a bit..I have been taking my vicoden and muscle relaxers but even after taking those the pain does not go away it just dims it . I can't even roll over in my bed as My side hurts too much and so I am pretty much sleeping on my back propped up with pillows which I hate. My cousin Randy came over yesterday and did my chores for me so I was glad he did.
So that in a nutshell is how my weekend went. I hope everyone else had a great one, of course minus any accidents.
Talk to you all soon
Now to talk about the I hurt.. yes the weekend was great but then all hell broke lose. Went riding on Sunday afternoon. The weather was kinda crappy and I should really have known better but I really wanted to ride. I took tbone out and of course he acted up, to the point where he went completely ballistic on me. I stayed on for as long as I could trying to get control but he finally got the better of me.. (if it was a rodeo I would have made my 8 secs with a great score) and up and OFF I went like a rag doll. I landed on my left back side, I knocked the wind right out of me so I was on the ground and NOT able to get up. Brent thought I was definitely hurt bad. of course that was after he got off the ground from his fall too. When I was able to get up I was having issues walking as my left hip, back and side were not working well. I was having trouble breathing still and it hurt something fierce in the center of my chest between the ribs.. I was a MESS and trying so very hard not to cry.. I hurt that bad. I made it home and then of course was NOT wanting to go to the hospital. After a while however I decided it would be for my best interest to go as I was not entirely sure I had not broken something as well as the pain between my ribs and breathing was getting worse. I was starting to get afraid that I screwed up something in my surgery.. so I figured it was best to go.. And of course there I stayed all evening and until the wee hours in the morning. Thankfully nothing is broken and I am basically just very bruised and battered.. The Doctor said I was gonna feel worse before I got better and she is right. Today is the worst right now. I friggin can't walk upright, turn my neck much, my shoulders and side ,along with my ribs and what I believe is my bruised kidney and sternum are hurting quite a bit..I have been taking my vicoden and muscle relaxers but even after taking those the pain does not go away it just dims it . I can't even roll over in my bed as My side hurts too much and so I am pretty much sleeping on my back propped up with pillows which I hate. My cousin Randy came over yesterday and did my chores for me so I was glad he did.
So that in a nutshell is how my weekend went. I hope everyone else had a great one, of course minus any accidents.
Talk to you all soon
Friday, October 24, 2008
weigh day.. Week???
Well I am still losing
This weeks weigh loss -2lbs
total weight loss since 4/29/08 -110lbs
AND I am now wearing a size 16 jeans !!!! comfortably
Pretty cool!! It is so amazing to me everytime I think about it just how far I have come and just how much I am changing. I am feeling better and of course looking better. I am really working hard at my self-confidence level and I think I am suceeding.. I went out to the bar last night with my cousin and had a good time.. I was comfortable enough to talk to more people and even managed to catch the eye of a couple of guys...lol... I don't feel like people are looking at me in disgust anymore and according to my cousin I get checked out quite frequently..lol..
Anyways, last night I also learned a HUGE lesson.. Now we all know that drinking is not the best thing you can do when you have this surgery and for the most part I am very careful about what I drink and how much.. But last night while getting my courage up to do some kareoke in a bar full of people I had a shot of Tequilla. That was the WORST mistake I could have ever made!! The minute that shot hit my stomach I doubled over in pain !! and it lasted for quite a few minutes. It was terrible and you can bet that I will NEVER do that again.. To me it felt just like you were pouring straight alcohol on an open cut.. Lesson learned on this one..
This weekend will also be a busy one. I am looking forward to spending time with my cousin and have allot of activities planned including some horse back riding.. Which you all know I just love to do. I hope you all have a great weekend and a safe one.. I am looking forward to telling you all about my weekend adventures.
Think Thin... MeChelle
This weeks weigh loss -2lbs
total weight loss since 4/29/08 -110lbs
AND I am now wearing a size 16 jeans !!!! comfortably
Pretty cool!! It is so amazing to me everytime I think about it just how far I have come and just how much I am changing. I am feeling better and of course looking better. I am really working hard at my self-confidence level and I think I am suceeding.. I went out to the bar last night with my cousin and had a good time.. I was comfortable enough to talk to more people and even managed to catch the eye of a couple of guys...lol... I don't feel like people are looking at me in disgust anymore and according to my cousin I get checked out quite frequently..lol..
Anyways, last night I also learned a HUGE lesson.. Now we all know that drinking is not the best thing you can do when you have this surgery and for the most part I am very careful about what I drink and how much.. But last night while getting my courage up to do some kareoke in a bar full of people I had a shot of Tequilla. That was the WORST mistake I could have ever made!! The minute that shot hit my stomach I doubled over in pain !! and it lasted for quite a few minutes. It was terrible and you can bet that I will NEVER do that again.. To me it felt just like you were pouring straight alcohol on an open cut.. Lesson learned on this one..
This weekend will also be a busy one. I am looking forward to spending time with my cousin and have allot of activities planned including some horse back riding.. Which you all know I just love to do. I hope you all have a great weekend and a safe one.. I am looking forward to telling you all about my weekend adventures.
Think Thin... MeChelle
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Practice Makes perfect --
Yup I went out with another guy last night.. we met at a local bar and had a pretty good time.. but, of course, who knows what will happen but my new way of thinking is that why not just go out and meet as many as I can. Get a few free drinks and dinners and see what happens.. So what I am basically saying is that I am now being able to look at this whole dating thing in a strictly casual manner.. totally different then a a couple of weeks ago. It will be interesting to see how things progress as the months or even years may go by.. I might just be looking back at these post and laughing while I am comfortable in some new relationship with a man who will seem perfect to me.. (Oh healthier Chelle... I have not ruled out the horse auction thing.. I actually found a new horse auction that I will be attending soon) My internet dating membership will be running out soon and I will NOT be renewing them as I don't really have the extra money to spend and the other reason is that I want to do a little experiment and see how men react to me as I lose more weight.. For instance I started this progress at one weight and did it for a month. I would like to lose 20 more lbs then sign up again and try it for a month. and then so on.. It is gonna be my own little experiment as to how men in general act. Who knows maybe my little experiment will end up on the Oprah show..lol
I am looking forward to this upcoming weekend. My cousin form TN is flying in and we always have a great time when we get together. So it should be a very active weekend which is always a good thing as then I don't have to worry about how much food I am putting in my mouth.
And speaking of food.. I am doing pretty well I think, I have not weighed myself at all so I am not really sure if I am losing any weight this week.. I of course, hope that I am but I am not really feeling it this week at all. But I guess we will see on Friday. I would happy with another 2 lbs.. My 6 month check up is coming due so we will see just how well I am doing.. I know that they are gonna yell about my protein as I am still very lax on getting that in. My hair is still falling out but some days it is worse then others and even though it is falling out I am not really seeing a difference in my hair, I mean it still feels as thick and as full as it usually does and well I get a butt load of compliments on it from all my online single weirdos.
So I guess that is it for now. I will check in with you all again on Friday.. Everyone have a great couple of days..
I am looking forward to this upcoming weekend. My cousin form TN is flying in and we always have a great time when we get together. So it should be a very active weekend which is always a good thing as then I don't have to worry about how much food I am putting in my mouth.
And speaking of food.. I am doing pretty well I think, I have not weighed myself at all so I am not really sure if I am losing any weight this week.. I of course, hope that I am but I am not really feeling it this week at all. But I guess we will see on Friday. I would happy with another 2 lbs.. My 6 month check up is coming due so we will see just how well I am doing.. I know that they are gonna yell about my protein as I am still very lax on getting that in. My hair is still falling out but some days it is worse then others and even though it is falling out I am not really seeing a difference in my hair, I mean it still feels as thick and as full as it usually does and well I get a butt load of compliments on it from all my online single weirdos.
So I guess that is it for now. I will check in with you all again on Friday.. Everyone have a great couple of days..
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